Saturday, December 30, 2006

Meme

Here’s a meme I found in Puffy's blog who found it in Badger’s blog. This one asks for the first sentence from the first blog entry of each month of 2006. Anyone care to try it for themselves?

January: what a fuckbench was?
February: I'm just a little pissed now.
March: The city baseball club has started their spring practices.
April: Maybe, just maybe, Monday I will have a new car.
May: (Monsty, you (and any others who find foul language offensive) may not want to read this. )
June: I don't know if you ever read my blog anymore, but in case you do, I wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday a couple of days early.
July: 1. How long does it take you to get ready in the mornings for whatever you have to do on a typical day?
August:I have hot water!
September: A couple of photos from our trip to the Memphis zoo.
October: I’m riding with my ex MIL to take my son to school.
November: Me, playing in a fountain.
December: not safe for work.


Blogger seems to have eaten my archives. I can't go past September 06 through the archives links. I had to go to "Edit Posts" to see anything past that. Maybe I should just delete the old entries, if I can't view the archives. Then I could convert to the "new" blogger. D'oh! I just needed to republish my blog!

Friday, December 29, 2006

just some random thoughts

Things I know intellectually, but emotionally keep trying to believe otherwise:
I will not find happiness at the bottom of a chip bag or an ice cream tub.
The happiness I think I find in the bottom of a wine bottle or other liquor bottle is not real.
No one is to blame for my feeling miserable, unloved and lonely except myself.
I will never truly be loved until I can love myself. I just don't know how to get to that point.
Not trusting people to be there, not believing that they really could care, is self-destructive.
Withdrawing from people or acting in a bitchy manner towards them to drive them away is just a self-fulfilling prophecy, ensuring that they *won't* be there.
I will never be as important to certain people as they are to me. Knowing and accepting this is probably a good thing, but it still hurts.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Thank God it's over.

I had enough "family togetherness" to last me for the next 3 years. Next year, I'm doing what I want. arkieboy can either spend Christmas with his dad, or he can come to my house. I am not going to my parents house. From now on, when I go down to see arkieboy, I'm staying at a motel, or I will be picking arkieboy up and taking him home for a visit.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Have you been naughty or nice?

For those who have been nice:


Merry Christmas Comment Graphics

And for those who have been naughty:


Merry Christmas Comment Graphics


What can I say? Being bad has its' own rewards. *smooch*
I hope you all have a safe and happy holiday!

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

your name

A : You like to drink
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to drink.
E: You are easy to fall in love with
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have very good personality and good looks.
I : You Are Great in bed.
J : People Adore yOU
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Everyone loves you.
M : best kisser ever.
N: You like to drink.
O: awesome kisser.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : Easy to fall in love with.
S : F*&kin crazy.
T : Your loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgemental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for.
Z : Always ready

Monday, December 18, 2006

Serious, yet hypothetical, question

Say a person is experiencing, oh, I don't know, rectal bleeding. Not a lot, just a little. Could said person safely assume that it's hemmorrhoids? And if that assumption can be safely made, is there anything that can be done about hemmorrhoids? I mean, are they "cureable"? Or would said person just need to "manage" said condition?

Sunday, December 17, 2006

So, here's the question...

Say you know something about someone... it's not any of your business, but you know it anyway. It doesn't have any effect on you or your life. But it has changed the way you view that person in a detrimental way. Is that being overly judgemental? After all, nobody's perfect, we all see things differently, and what's right for one is not right for another. So, how do you come to terms with it? Do you say "I think it's wrong" and distance yourself from that person? Or do you really look at the person and how you thought and felt about them prior to learning this thing about them, and decide if this one thing is enough to end a friendship? And does it matter on who the person is and how you felt about them? I mean, if two people do this same thing, and you liked one and disliked the other, does it change your perception of their actions and the "wrongness" of it? Are you more likely to accept an action by someone you like as opposed to someone you didn't?

*sigh* Sometimes, ignorance really is bliss. Too bad you can't "unknow" something.

Coooooookieeeeeeee!

I got my other box of cookies in the exchange! Thanks, Coco! The gingerbread cookies are so good, and I am REALLY enjoying the Chocolate Mint Chews! Yum!

Friday, December 15, 2006

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Not work safe, either

*pout*

I've loaded a .gif file here before. And it worked. I don't know why this one keeps getting screwed up.


But it greatly amuses me. I'm easily amused.

FTR, blog wasn't messed up, I was. I had temporarily moved my blog while I debated on deleting it. I'm still not sure that I want to keep a public blog. Just been some stuff that's bothering me, and I have to decide if I can deal with it, or if I will just have a super meltdown.

Have I added enough filler that a person won't see the picture without scrolling down?

I hope so. I just wish the .gif file would work.









Wednesday, December 13, 2006

NOT work safe

I'm thinking this might help get me in the Christmas spirit...








Damn! I had really cool gif file to upload, and it's not working... Well, if anyone wants it, just email me, and I'll send it to you that way.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

secret santa

Yay! The gift I sent was received, and well liked. I am so glad. I got someone I don't really know, but sort of admire, so I was a little anxious about what to get him/her. I didn't observe the $10 limit, but you know... it's not about how much or how little you spend. It's the thought you put into the gift, IMO. I think it's more important to take the time to think about what someone would like or would make them happy. So, based on the post on the Reveal thread, I was successful. And that makes me happy.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Oooo! another prezzie

I got a beautomous calendar with flowers of Hawaiia in my mail today! Thank you so much, Woe!

*smooch*

Cookies!!!!

So after another crappy day at work (but not as bad as yesterday), I finally get home. It's cold and I just didn't feel so great. As I pull in, I see a package on my porch! I get the rest of my mail out of the box, unlock my front door, and pick up the box. It's from Breezy! I hurried inside to find a pair of scissors to cut the tape, and I got Breezy balls! I've put the pumpkin roll in the fridge, and I am really enjoying the pretzel kisses. I love sweet and salty.

Thanks, Breezy!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

couple of videos about BBWs

Lo-Rider Skinny - not safe for work.

Anthony Hamilton Sista Big Bones

May not be to everybody's taste, but I think it's good for me to see that a woman can be sexy and being large doesn't negate that.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Bah! Humbug!

*sigh* I want to go to sleep and when I wake up, I want it to be January 2. I used to love Christmas time. I loved buying gifts for people, wrapping the presents, and just couldn’t wait to see the peoples’ faces when they opened the presents, to see if they liked what I gave them. I would have to make myself NOT buy something for someone because I had already picked up more for them than I had planned. But I couldn’t help it – I would see something and think, “Oh, that would be perfect for so-and-so.” I loved going through the stores and looking at all the Christmas decorations, and picking up more stuff to decorate my home. I couldn’t wait to put up a tree and decorate it. I loved seeing houses decorated with lights, and felt like I could just watch the lights for hours. Making special treats and sharing them with others. Picking out Christmas cards and mailing them. Watching all the Christmas specials on TV – Rudolph, Here Comes Santa Claus, Frosty the Snowman, the Charlie Brown Christmas, Miracle on 34th Street. But this year, I’m not feeling it. I don’t see anything in the stores and think of someone, anyone. I have no interest in looking at lights. I haven’t even walked through the Christmas section in any of the stores I’ve been in, unless it was a shortcut for where I was headed. And in those cases, I didn’t slow down and look at anything. I signed up for the Secret Santa at OT, and now, kind of wished I hadn’t. I have a couple of ideas of what I’m going to get my giftee, but I’m not putting the same thought and consideration into it as I have in the past. If he/she likes it, great, and if he/she doesn’t, so what? I signed up for the cookie exchange, and now am feeling stressed about it. I can’t even decide *what* to make. How hard is it to decide what kind of cookie to make? Yet, I can’t seem to do it. I don’t want to spend Christmas with my family this year. It’s getting harder and harder to spend any length of time with them and not just lose my cool. And it’s not over anything big. People are getting on my nerves just by breathing. I’m feeling like a total Scrooge, but part of me doesn’t care that I’m feeling anti-social and selfish and self-centered.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

more pictures

My sister and me. After she was born, I was asked quite often if she was my baby. Do I look old enough to have had a baby in this picture?
















This is me & my oldest nephew - this is probably December 82 or January 83.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Me & my oldest nephew, Christmas 82 (edit: actually, this is probably 83. D was born in 82, and there's no way that he was that big and riding a trike at 6 months.)



For motormouth: In case you were wondering, those strange knobs on the TV? *leans in to whisper* This is how we changed channels back in the olden days. We had to get up, walk to the TV, and twist those knobs.
Back row: My cousin Nathan, my cousin Frankie (they're brothers), my brother Joe
Front row: My cousin Carla, me, my brother Jay

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Back home for a minute

Went down to Arkansas Wednesday - took freakin forever. Had Thanksgiving dinner Thursday - turkey, ham, candied sweet potatoes, green bean casserole, salad, mashed potatoes, dressing, some kind of peas, deviled eggs, rolls, and for dessert, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, french coconut pie, lemon meringue pie, and pineapple cream cheese pie (my contribution). Came back to Tenn yesterday with arkieboy - went to see Happy Feet and then went to Wal-Mart so he could pick up some film and a CD. He's still asleep right now, which is how I am able to get on the computer.

While I was at Mom's, I went through her pictures and got several of me. She had told me once before, that if I wanted any of the old photos, to take what I wanted. I will be posting some sporadically, as I get them scanned. Here's a couple for now.


Sunday, November 12, 2006

Furniture for
Motormouth
another piece
I actually kind of like these pieces.

Friday, November 10, 2006

This is a scream!

Now you know what I do when the boss is away

My Saturday "To Do" list

1) take car in for oil change
2) rake leaves
3) do laundry
4) CLEAN THE FREAKING HOUSE ALREADY
5) pay whatever bills have come in this week
6) maybe pick up some groceries?
7) Do something with the bumper from the Malibu that has been in the back room ever since that accident.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

The next trip?

Arkieboy wants us to go to San Diego next summer. Why? Because he wants to go to the SD zoo. I've told him I will try to work it out. I think Southwest flies there, and if I can catch the airfare on sale, that might run me around $400 roundtrip for the two of us. I've checked online, and admission to the zoo will be $32 each. They do have package deals that would also get us into Seaworld and the Wild Animal Park, and also covers (I think) the bus tour at the zoo and maybe the aerial tram.

Any recommendations as to what hotels to stay at, and more importantly, which ones to stay away from?

Saturday, November 04, 2006

My vacation

I flew into Oakland Wednesday. The flight was late arriving, and as soon as we landed, I turned on my cell phone and I no sooner got off the plane when catty called to find out where was I. I let her know we just landed, and I was headed to claim my luggage. While I'm waiting on my suitcase to come out on the baggage carousel, Catt calls again and says she's standing by the information desk. I look around, and there she is! We start talking while we're waiting on my suitcase, and it wasn't like talking to someone you had just met, it was such an easy conversation. We went back to her apartment and just hung out and talked.

Thursday. Ah, Thursday. Catt was not able to get off from work, but I told her I could go into SF and do the tourist thing by myself - it would be fine. I would be fine. Heh. My day starts off with me calling a cab to come pick me up and take me to the BART station. I could not understand the guy at the cab company, but we finally got that worked out. Then the guy couldn't find the apartment complex for a while. But he finally shows up, and I learn that the whole "cab drivers stink" stereotype is true. *gag* It's called deodorant, dude. Try it. I buy my ticket for BART, board the train, full of excitement that I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and confident that I can do this thing. I get off the train where the San Francisco Information Center is, thinking this is a piece of cake. I walk out, and start walking down the street. I see several people who look like they could be homeless. I keep walking down the street for a few blocks, and it's just getting worse. And it totally smells like pee. It's around 1:00 by this time, and I still haven't eaten anything all day. I'm not seeing any place on this street that looks like anything I would want to go into. I tend to shy away from eating establishments that have NO customers at what I would presume to be a busy time for such types of business. I've gone, I don't know, 5 or 6 blocks perhaps? and it's not getting any better. So I finally turn around and head back to the train station. By the way? I need to pee, badly. I did think that if I were to just squat down on the sidewalk, I would probably fit right in. On the other side of the train station is the Westfield San Francisco Centre. Freaking huge. It's a nine story structure. I believe the top 4 floors are office spaces. By now, I'm getting the shakes from not eating, and my back is starting to hurt. I go to the food court and start feeling like a total hick just down from the hills and in "the big city" for the first time ever (which, ok, I was) because unlike any other food court I've ever come across, here, the food is served on "real" dinnerware. Yes, actual plates and silverware, not Styrofoam plates and plastic forks and knives. I select where I'm going to eat (some Thai place), get my meal, and then wander around the very crowded dining area looking for an empty seat. The food was ok, but it wasn't anything special, but still a step up from the normal food court cuisine. After eating, I go up a couple of flights and look around. Unfortunately, I left it too long without eating, and I have the misfortune to have my body react badly when I do this. I don't get cranky, I get weepy. Being a bitch would be preferable, believe me. So now I'm shaking and just barely holding on to keep from having a complete and total meltdown. I get out of there and get back on the train, headed back to Catt's. Can I tell you how much I hate crying? And I have.no.control. over it. It's humiliating. So I'm on the train, thinking this was the biggest fucking mistake of my life. Tears keep running down my face, so I just stare out the window the whole time, and try to discretely wipe the tears off my face. Catt had something about I could use her laptop whenever I wanted, so the thought that keeps running through my mind is I can go online, change my flight, hopefully to one that day and just go home. After the train gets to final stop, I get off, and then it just so happens that arkieboy calls me to ask how my trip is going. I hate when I lose it around him. He amazes me sometimes. For a 15 yr old, he can be so mature and wise at times. When I told him I was thinking about coming home early, he started telling me I shouldn't do that, that I would regret it if I did. Anyhoo, as if all of this wasn't making a bad enough day, it gets more Griswold-ish. The cab ride had cost $14, and the driver had a hard time finding the apartment. I knew if I got another cabbie who couldn't find it, I would not be able to give any directions. Catt had mentioned that there was a bus stop just right there on the street by her apartment. I notice that the bus fare is only $1.50. So I call the bus station, give the woman the address of where I'm going, and ask what bus I would want, and what my stop would be. She tells me take the #8 bus, and to get off at _______ & _________. So, ok, I'm good, I can do this. (Have I mentioned, that other than flying, I have NEVER taken public transportation before this trip. This is all new to me. Cabs, buses, trains - all new.) I get on the bus, pay my fare, and I'm good. I miss the stop that the woman told me to take, so I get off at the very next stop. I'm one street over from the street that Catt lives on. But nothing had looked familiar at all. I call Catt, and leave her a voice mail to let her know I have no idea where I'm at. The police station was just a couple of blocks away, so I walk over to find out which direction I need to head. I notice that I'm on the #### block of the street. Catt's address would be 13 blocks away. So, if I had gotten off where the bus station told me to, it still wouldn't have been right. So, after asking someone at the police station whether I wanted to go to my left or my right, I head off. I call Catt to let her know that I'm not completely lost now, and have to leave another voice mail. Hills suck. Walking 13 blocks suck. Walking 13 blocks that include two hills really sucks. Catt calls me back, and I think I'm about halfway there at that point. She tells me that she will be getting off work soon, and will head straight home - I ask that she please stop and pick up some Diet Coke, because I'm going to need it. So I finally make it to her apartment, let myself in, and basically collapse. My feet were hurting to the point that even the tops of my feet hurt. So, that was my Thursday, and yes, I did want to go home then. If I had been able to get online, I probably *would* have changed my flight.

Catt asked me if I wanted to do anything Friday, and I said no, I was quite good with just hanging out at the apartment until Carey's birthday party. There was no way in hell I was going to venture out again by myself. Friday night was Carey's birthday party, and I'm not going to go into that because you've probably already her account of the party. I didn't drink very much - I don't know if I just wasn't feeling like myself or what the deal was, but I couldn't hang with the drinks. I actually gave one of the shots to someone else to finish. And people who know me, know that never happens. I do not waste a drink.

Saturday was really cool. Catt, Jimbo and I went to a few wineries in Livermore, and did the whole wine tasting thing. Loved it. I had never done this before, and I really enjoyed it. I wish that I could have gotten a copy of the wine lists that we tasted, so I could make notes as to which ones I liked and which ones I didn't, because I can't remember exactly which ones I even tasted, much less what I thought about all of them. Catt had offered to pick some up and ship them to me, but I discovered today that it is a felony in Tennessee to ship wine to a TN address. So, I guess that's out. *pouts*

Sunday, we went to see Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D, which is always really fun. I *heart* 3D movies. We also ate at In & Out Burgers, which was pretty good.

Monday, I packed up, took the bus to the BART station, and headed off to meet up with Carey. She picked me up, and we went back to her house to drop off my luggage. We then headed off to the Wharf (after turning around and going back so I could get my camera). So, I got to see the Wharf, see the sea lions, see where Alcatraz was (I don't do boats and water, so we didn't take a ferry out to it), and I picked up a few souvenirs. We then grabbed a bite to eat, and then went to the wax museum. If you ever go, don't sit in the electric chair. It didn't really hurt, but I don't care to get shocked on my ass. *grin* Because I wanted to see the ocean more than anything, Carey took me for a drive along the coast. We had lunch at Nick's, which is right on the beach. I could have just sat there and looked at the ocean for hours, probably. It's weird, I hate to be on the water, but I love being next to the water, and watching it. Then Carey took me to the Golden Gate Park. That's where we saw the fountains with no water, and the outdoor bench museum. Seriously. There's this one area that has all these benches, just bunches of them. That night, Carey and Michelle took me to the mall that has the 2 story Target. I have to say it - the cart escalator was freaking cool. After that, we went back to their house, and talked for a little bit. Michelle and I were talking, and suddenly, we hear this snoring. Carey had crashed on the couch. Then Tuesday, Carey took me to the airport, and I came home.

Parts of this trip surpassed my expectations and was so much better than I would have thought. Other parts where less than I expected. So. I'm glad I went, but I'm not sure I'll be doing anything like this again.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Strange sights

This? was the strangest thing I saw on my trip.

















Freaky, huh?

More pics

Denny the kissing bartender, Jimbo, and Catt (note the placement of Denny's hand)













Group/grope shot

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Me, playing in a fountain. Don't get me started on the garden at this park.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006




See y'all in a week!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

It's another stupid moment with Arkie

I locked myself out of the house this morning.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Work issues

Am I expecting too much? Is that the problem? I have unreasonable expectations of people? If you send an email on the 26th, reminding everyone of the report that has to be done Each.And.Every.Fucking.Quarter, and letting them know that you absolutely have to have it by the 20th of the following month because You.Won't.Be.There. at the end of the month, and then you send a reminder. AGAIN. on the 13th to those who haven't sent it in already, is it too much to ask that they SEND THE FUCKING THING IN BY THE 20TH????? IS.THAT.TOO.MUCH.TO.ASK? That they do their fucking jobs for once? Meet the dogdamn fucking deadline! OH! If it was up to me, I would fucking fire them. Because it's the same damn ones who miss the damn deadline every fucking quarter. 41 other people were able to do this. Why are these 2 unable to do what the others do???? One had put it in regular mail Monday. Well, it takes just a little bit long to get mail from Houston to Nashville. But they do this every time. And the other??? Had not even sent it. Calls me to say she will be sending it FedEx TODAY. The day I needed to have it in my hands.

In other moods, I'm sad about something at work. The only other person in our department besides me (and our boss) that isn't either fucking crazy or fucking stupid is leaving. She's going back to work at a facility in Arkansas. I understand why, but I don't like it. I don't talk to the other people in our department about anything other than work. I'm friends with this lady. It just makes me want to cry.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Stupid travel-related question

I was just checking the Nashville Airport's website, to get the parking rates. Short-term would run me $20/day. Long-term's maximum is $8/day and Economy is $6/day. Shuttle service is offered for all parking areas, so why would I not park in Economy?

On my first flight, which was business related, my boss advised me to park in long-term as opposed to short-term, even though I was only going to be out of town overnight. I'm trying to remember if there was a reason given as to why I would not want to park in Economy instead.

Any advice/suggestions?

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Some Rules to Consider

1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

2. Don't worry about what people think, they don't do it very often.

3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.

4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.

5. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.

6. My idea of housework is to sweep the room with a glance.

7. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.

8. A person, who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person. (This is very important. Pay attention! It never fails.)

9. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.

10. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.

11. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks.

12. A conscience is what hurts when all of your other parts feel so good.

13. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway.

14. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.

15. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.

16. A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand.

17. Middle age is when broadness of the mind and narrowness of the waist change places.

18. Opportunities always look bigger going than coming.

19. Junk is something you've kept for years and throw away three weeks before you need it.

20. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.

21. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.

22. By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.

23. Thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator.

24. Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the real world.

25. It ain't the jeans that make your butt look fat.

26. If you had to identify, in 1 word, the reason why the human race has not achieved, & never will achieve, its full potential, that word would be "meetings."

27. There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness."

28. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.

29. You should not confuse your career with your life.

30. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.

31. Never lick a steak knife.

32. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.

33. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.

34. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.

35. There comes a time when you should stop expecting other people to make a big deal about your birthday. That time is age eleven.

36. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender, religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside, we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.

37. Your friends love you anyway.

38. Thought for the day: Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.

39: How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?

Monday, October 16, 2006

*snort*

My cat hates you

I hope this link works. Made me think of Carey. *grin* If the link doesn't work, click the link to the side, and check out October's gallery, pic #15.

and #32

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Breast Cancer Awareness

As we all know, October is breast cancer awareness. Please, do the monthly self breast exams. Once you're 40, get a mammagram once a year. And if you ever find a lump that concerns you, for the love of God, go to the doctor. I just found out that another one of my aunts has been diagnosed with breast cancer. She knew she had it, but decided to treat it herself at home with Vicks and turpentine??????? What the hell was she thinking??????? She finally went to the doctor when her back started bothering her and she was afraid it had moved to her spine. Her daughter told my mother that she really doesn't think her mother will make longer than a year now.

Cancer is so common in my family. Maternal grandmother: breast cancer, skin cancer. Paternal grandmother: lung cancer, pancreas cancer. Paternal grandfather: skin cancer, "spots on the lung and brain". Paternal aunts: breast cancer. Maternal aunts: breast cancer, cancer on the brain.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

*fans self*

Can I just say, the guy who mows my yard is such a hottie??!!?? I swear, if I was 20 years younger, I would so be trying to do him. Hell, maybe even if I was only 10 years younger.

Today's "stupid arkie moment"

So, I'm sitting at the computer, and I keep smelling something. I keep thinking what the hell is that??? In the trash was some stuff from Chinese takeout the other day that I had left in the kitchen instead of carrying outside. I decide that it is probably what I'm smelling. Instead of just taking it out and putting it in the garbage, I lift it up and sniff it to make sure that it's what I'm smelling. It was. *puke*

Thursday, October 12, 2006

The young Arkie

These are the only pics I have of me as a young child. I will have to scrounge around next time I'm at my parents' and get some more.

I'm so vain, I have this pic hanging on my wall:


This is the picture I used in one of my sig pics:


Guess what I'm drinking?

It was not safe to leave a beer unattended around me. *shrugs*

Sunday, October 08, 2006

So. Have you ever done something, or said you were going to do something, just on the spur of the moment, and really didn't think it through? I do this all the time. Now that I'm starting to really think about it, I'm not sure it can be done. Or should be done. Or maybe just not right now. Later would be better. Or am I trying to put it off just because I'm scared, and doing this takes me WAAAAAY out of my comfort zone? *sigh*

I'm thisclose to cancelling my trip. The more I think about it, the more I think maybe this is just not a good idea. I'm just getting a bad vibe about the whole thing. So, I've bought the plane tickets and I have a place to stay, but then what? What am I going to do that whole week? How am I going to get around? What the hell was I thinking???? What do I pack? How do I need to dress? I don't do checked luggage, so I limit myself to what can go in the carryon. Is that feasible for a week though???? Shit. I'm making myself crazy here. I have to have a plan. Not having a plan is stressing me out. Who the fuck goes on vacation without having some concept of what they are going to do???? (Besides insane people like myself??) This is stupid.

This dream was beyond bizarre

I had the strangest dream last night. I'm not going to go into all the details, because parts of it are just too nasty to share.

I'm at work, checking my email. For some reason, I'm getting a lot of SPAM, but these spam mails are somehow replys (is it still "change the y to an i, and add es" when you are using the word reply as a noun instead of a verb? It looks wrong either way to me.) to emails that I've sent to some inter-company email addys. I'm discussing the issue with my friend and one of the IT guys. We discover that the IT guy is to blame. So, I decide to open up these emails and read them. The first one or two are commenting on my original email. The next 2 are pornographic animation, that is scrolling across my monitor. The next one after that is also a pornographic animation, involving Andy Dick and a sheep. When the animation stops, there is a voice saying "time has run out for the sheep. But it's not too late for you. Vote for... (and I don't remember what I was being told to vote for)".

Seriously, could it get any more bizarre than a political ad that uses Andy Dick and a sheep to scare you into voting for something???

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Waffle

What a fun word. And a really great breakfast food. Waffle, waffle, waffle, here I go waffling. *grin*

Your challenge, should you choose to accept, is to guess what arkie is thinking.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Free Hugs

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This is beautiful, but would you do this? Would you go up and hug a perfect stranger? I would probably walk on by.

Well, that was a bizarre dream

I’m riding with my ex MIL to take my son to school. XMIL gives rides to other kids (but they’re not all in the same neighborhood or even go to the same school). We pick up and drop off several kids, and on the last one, she has her mini-van in the people’s house, turning it around in the kitchen and dining room. Then it changes to we’re sitting on some bleachers and to the right of us is a wooded area that has a small clearing in part of it. It’s me, arkieboy, XMIL, a young child (girl, maybe 2 or 3 yrs old) that’s not related to any of us, I think the XMIL must be babysitting, and Glow. The weather is kind of drizzly. I look off to the clearing area and see a herd of deer, a puppy, and a wolf pup. I say to my son, look at the wolf cub! XMIL says who cares about that in a real snotty tone. I wish I could take a picture of it, but don’t bother reaching for my camera, because the deer will all be gone before I could get it ready. Suddenly, the deer are all gone, and it’s a bunch of wolves. They come up to where we are sitting, and I’m able to pet 3 or 4 of them. They’re wet, of course, because of the drizzle. Glow reaches for the camera, but knocks it off the bleacher instead. The lens pops off and the battery falls out. Glow’s saying she’s sorry, and I say it’s alright. I pick up the 3 items, pop the lens back on, but before putting the battery in, I notice there’s a lot of water inside the camera. So I’m holding the camera upside down, turning it this way and that way, to drain it. For some reason, Glow has my printer/scanner, which is also full of water. She’s doing it the same way I’m doing the camera, to drain it. I say something about how the camera and printer always do this. Glow says she’s not a PC expert, but she fakes it enough at work.

Then I woke up, concerned about whether I had turned my alarm back on (I have it off on the weekends) because I didn't want to be late for work. Then after sitting up for a minute or two, I realized something. It doesn't matter, because it's not Monday yet!

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Bad doctor stories

OK, people, let's hear them!

Reading Augie's blog the other day, and then having to make the appointment for my own exam got me to thinking about my horrible pap smear story.

This may be too graphic for some.

It was right before I had gotten married. I had went to the Health Department so I could get on birth control pills. The Health Dept had switched from metal speculums to plastic ones. The Dr was having difficulty inserting this speculum, and decided to heat it up, so he could reshape it a little to be smaller. Let me tell you something. If a plastic item is hot enough that you can reshape it, and is still hot when you insert it, it burns. So, yeah, stick this thing up inside me, scorch the hell out of my hoo-haa, and then get all huffy and tell me to be still and relax.

Then there's the funny to everyone but me story about getting a physical exam. Many years ago, I was either 27 or 28, I had decided I wanted to get my nursing home administrator's license. Because I only had an AA degree, I would have to go through the state's A-I-T program. They required that you have a physical exam before you could be accepted into the program. In the small town I lived in, there was only one doctor, other than the Health Department. I normally drove to the next town, 35 miles away, and went to the doctor there. However, the hometown doctor, who was in his 80's, only charged $10 to do a physical. An office visit to my normal doctor was $35, plus gas for the trip. And just so you know, I had never had a physical before, and I was still pretty trusting and naive about people's natures, authority type figures, and people in certain professions, like doctors. Igo in, and as part of the exam, I have to take off my shirt and pants. While I'm standing there in my bra and panties, the dr tells me to jump up and down 20 times. So, naturally, I do as I'm instructed. Unfortunately, the AIT program was already full by the time I got my application in. But then, before it even started, someone dropped out, and I got in. But I had to resubmit my application, and have a new physical. I go back to the same dr, and this time I only had to unbutton my shirt, and then jump up and down. Which, of course, I did. Well, sometime later (like months), I was standing at the nurses's station at the nursing home that I worked at (as bookkeeper), and one of the CNA's mentioned that she had had to go to the dr's that morning for a physical. I asked "don't you just hate having to stand there in your underclothes and then jump up and down?" She looked at me blankly, and asked "what are you talking about?" I discover that, while several people have gone to this dr for physicals, none of them ever had to do that as part of the exam. Talk about feeling stupid. But I had no idea that wasn't just a normal part of the procedure.









So. How many more bookcases do you think I would need to get all of these out of the guest BR closet? This is not counting my TBR stack or the books that I've loaned out.

Blogger's being a bitch now

I had a couple of more photos I wanted to post and it won't let me.

My guest bedroom

Also, the only clean room in the house, therefore, the only one I will be posting pictures of.

First thing you will see is the painting I bought instead of paying bills when I sold my stock.


It is currently hanging directly over the bookcases I stained last weekend. (Bravie and HD, I won't be offended if you take back your request to have me finish your kitchen cabinets and table.)


Not much furniture, just a bed, quilt rack and a little table. This wall is where I want to hang the painting *points up*, but I keep forgetting to get some nails. Plus I need a stud-finder so I can make sure I put the nail in the right place.



The sun keeps this room very well lit. I like to come in here and lay on the bed to read in the afternoon on the weekends.


Some day I'm going to stick a comfy chair over in this corner.

These things are always such crap,

but I can't resist them anyway.

What kind of baby are you find the month you where born in read it and then cut and paste and send to 5 people.

Jan
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.

Feb
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

Mar
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

Apr
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.

Jun
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

Jul
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days

Aug
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

Sept
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

Oct
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.

Nov
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

Dec
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. [A hot new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too in the next 6 days, if you repost in 5min

Friday, September 29, 2006

update

My doctor called with my lab results. My thyroid levels were low, indicating an underactive thyroid, which would make it difficult to lose weight. So, I will get another prescription, and weight loss should be a little easier.

Of course, now I have to come back in 8 weeks instead of 6 months. I was on a yearly check, but he said I seem to not do good if he lets me go for too long. *grin*

I have to say, I truly feel old now. I'm on 5 prescriptions now. He also suggested, but I'm not going to do it, that I get some compression hose.

Ramblings of an insomniac

3 in the morning, can't sleep, so here I am.

I need more bookcases. I haven't filled up the 3 small ones, but that's just because I'm being picky about what goes in them because I won't be able to put all my books in. I dropped another $50 on books this past week. *rolls eyes at self*

Went to the doctor yesterday. He wasn't very happy with me, but said he didn't want to get on my case too much because he was concerned that I just wouldn't come back. I had gained back all the weight I had lost. I told him I had stopped taking the Wellbutrin because I had being having problems affording refilling all the meds he had me on. That won't be a problem now, or shouldn't be, because I did a debt reconsolidation loan, and will be paying around $900 less per month on my bills. (Of course, if I turn around and spend all that "extra" money on books, I will still be in the same boat.) This time, he put me on a generic version of the Wellbutrin. He also put me on a med to help lower cholesterol. $100 bucks a month for medicine. Oh well, just got to budget it in, and deal with it. My blood pressure was a bit high, but I think that could be tracked to a couple of reasons - 1)my prescription renewals had expired, so I was off my medicine for a couple of weeks, and 2)I had to deal with stupidity at the office before my appointment. He also wasn't too pleased that I hadn't had a gyno exam/pap smear for two years. I tried to weasel out of that, but he told me to just suck it up and go. So, I called my gyno and made that appointment, as well as an appointment to get a mammogram. Wow, October is going to be such a fun month! A pap smear and a mammogram in the same month? Who could ask for more fun???

I cannot stand being around one woman at work. She wears too much perfume (some Estee Lauder shit), and occasionally, the perfume doesn't quite disguise the body funk she has going. I am sort of sensitive to odors, anyway, and her perfume just burns my lungs. I feel like I'm suffocating after she's been in my office. She has also tried to make me and the others in our department look bad to our boss (this woman is the newest member of our department). In our department, we are all a bit territorial, and this woman keeps overstepping the boundaries. Medicare is MINE. She needs to step the fuck back and do her own damn job. And God forbid if you ever have to ask her a question that most people would be able to answer in 3 words or less. You better have a fucking hour to spend listening to her. Blah, blah, blah. She spends so much time making excuses as to why she can't meet deadlines, that she could have met the deadline if she had spent the time actually working! Another co-worker and I are both just bitchy enough that we keep giving this woman enough rope to hang herself. We could give her a few pointers that would help her, but you know? Some people, you just know it would be a waste of time and breath to say anything, so let them screw themselves.
One of our deadlines is that claims are supposed to be ready by 2:30 on the fifth working day. She sends an email to our supervisor and copies me, on the fourth working day at 1:00 explaining how she's not going to make the deadline because of this, that, and some other shit. I reply back that "today's not the deadline, tomorrow is, because it's the fifth working day of the month." Instead of just saying ok, or whatever, she has to go into how the "accounting calendar says it's today". Well, bitch, I don't really give a fuck what the accounting calendar says. I am the Medicare Billing Manager. I make the fucking deadline. And it's the fucking fifth working day of the month. So shut the fuck up, and do your fucking work. (I know, power trip, much?)

Sometimes, I wish I could really let my inner bitch out. I know I bitch here a lot, but I wish I could really just tell people to their face what a big bag of fucking shit I truly think they are. But no, I pretend to be polite and civil, and don't tell them that as dumb as I am, I'm still much more intelligent than they are. Hell, a fucking rock has more intelligence than some of this people. Seriously, how the hell do some people manage to find their way home each day? They seem to be unable to retain any other knowledge for more than 5 minutes. I hate having to have the same conversation over and over because people can't be bothered to remember how to do something from one time to the next and can't write down the instructions, either.
I let people annoy me too much. Sometimes, I wish I could be a hermit, and never interact with other people. Just live in a shack somewhere and never speak to anyone, ever.

Great. It's almost 4:00, and I'm not sleepy in the least. That will change in an hour. And I will go to bed at 5:00 and have a hell of a time getting up at 6:00.

And if anyone ever wants to know, celibacy sucks. Just sayin.

I am so easily amused. I ran spell check and it wanted to replace "Wellbutrin" with "elevators" and "mammogram" with "monogram". LOL. I'm on elevators to help suppress my appetite and deal with depression. I will be going to have a monogram on my breasts. Maybe I am more tired than I realized, if I'm sitting here laughing over that.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Bwahahaha!!!

Hairy Back

Big Brother fans will recognize someone in this video. I think another person is from Joe Millionaire.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Pie stuff

I googled this, and it sounds a lot like the way my mom makes French Coconut pie. I need to get that recipe from her.

1 1/2 cups granulated sugar
3 large eggs, beaten
1 1/2 cups sweetened flaked coconut
1/2 cup butter or margarine, melted
1 tablespoon white distilled vinegar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 (9-inch) unbaked pie shell
1. Preheat oven to 350*F.
2. Combine sugar, beaten eggs, coconut, melted butter, vinegar, and vanilla; mix well.
3. Pour into unbaked pie shell and bake for 50 to 60 minutes, or until a knife inserted in center comes out clean.
4. Cool before serving.
Makes 8 servings.


Dessert on Derby day can only be one thing: a rich, dense chocolate pecan pie infused with Kentucky bourbon. The original version of this pie is heavily trademarked and fiercely protected by its inventors, but you will find several unofficial versions of it, called anything from Run for the Roses Pie to Eighth Race Pie to Thoroughbred Pie to just Chocolate Bourbon Pecan Pie.

Since you can't get the actual recipe of Kentucky Derby pie, I googled the Chocolate Bourbon Pecan Pie, and came up with this one.

Chocolate Bourbon Pecan Pie
Submitted by: Anita L.Rated: 5 out of 5 by 84 members Prep Time: 30 MinutesCook Time: 1 Hour Ready In: 1 Hour 30 MinutesYields: 8 servings
"Sweet, chocolaty, crunchy, and down-right decadent, this pie is sure to please all. Corn syrup, butter, and sugar are first melted, and then eggs, bourbon, vanilla and salt are combined in a bowl and whisked along with the heated sugar mixture. Then the chocolate and pecans are mixed into the filling that 's then poured into the pie shell."
INGREDIENTS:
1 (9 inch) pie shell1 cup white sugar1 cup light corn syrup1/2 cup butter4 eggs, beaten 1/4 cup bourbon1 teaspoon vanilla extract1/4 teaspoon salt6 ounces semisweet chocolate chips1 cup chopped pecans
DIRECTIONS:
1. Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees F).
2. In a small saucepan combine sugar, corn syrup, and butter or margarine. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly, until butter or margarine melts and sugar dissolves. Cool slightly.
3. In a large bowl combine eggs, bourbon, vanilla, and salt. Mix well. Slowly pour sugar mixture into egg mixture, whisking constantly. Stir in chocolate chips and pecans. Pour mixture into pie shell.
4. Bake in preheated oven for 50 to 55 minutes, or until set and golden. May be served warm or chilled.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2005 Allrecipes.com Printed from Allrecipes.com 9/26/2006

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Well, hell

Or, arkie can be so stupid sometimes.

I have been looking for a bookcase to put in my guest bedroom for a really long time. Never could find exactly what I was looking for. So, last weekend, I go to the Unfinished Furniture store, and find 3 small bookcases in a style I like. Next to them was some finished pieces in a finish that I liked. I asked the guy what I would use to make these pieces look like the ones next to them, and he showed me which wax to use. So, I buy the 3 bookcases (ftr, I would have preferred one large bookcase, but I knew I would have to fit whatever I bought in my small car) and the wax. The guy at the shop told me I would need to lightly sand the pieces before staining them. Yesterday, I went to Home Depot and bought the fine grain sandpaper and some tack cloth. This morning, I decide I'm going to get these knocked out. I sand one of them, and start staining it. And it has turned out exactly like I wanted. However, I did not want my hands to look like rustic pine. Yep, should have worn gloves to do this. My nails look hideous! I'm hoping I will be able to scrape this crap out from around the nailbeds. Ugh!

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Weird dreams

I've been having some strange dreams lately. I don't remember the dreams entirely, but just bits and pieces.

Dream 1: I'm being chased by a very hostile bear. The bear was actually a person who got changed into a bear.

Dream 2: I walk out to my mailbox after I've written checks to pay my bills, and need to put them in the box. I open the box, and someone has built a fire in it. There's a log and a lot of embers in it. I'm mad because I can't put my mail in there until the fire goes out.

Dream 3: I'm on a bus with a friend, and there is a younger guy sitting either in the seat across from me, or in front of me. His head is shaved, and he has 2 skull tattoos on it. I am tracing over the tattoos with my finger, and telling him how beautiful they are (which is weird, because I really don't care for skull tattoos). Then the bus pulls up to my stop and I jump off and run to (where?).


Anyone feel like doing some dream interpretation?

weekend quiz time

You Are Incredibly Logical

Move over Spock - you're the new master of logic
You think rationally, clearly, and quickly.
A seasoned problem solver, your mind is like a computer!





You Are Bold And Brave



But daring? Not usually?

You tend to like to make calculated risks.

So while you may not be base jumping any time soon...

You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!






You Have OK Karma



You try to be a good person... well, sometimes you try!

While you are caring deep down, you don't always show it.

You're very focused on yourself, and others come second (if not third).

Which is fine, but don't expect others to focus on you.






You Belong in Spring



Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...

You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.

Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

A momma's got to brag...

Arkieboy entered a couple of photos and one of his drawings in the county fair. When they award the ribbons, the rankings are "A", "B", and "C". He received a B ribbon on both of his photos, and he received an "A" ribbon for his drawing! I am so very proud of him. I tell him all the time that he is talented, and that his drawings are wonderful, but he doesn't believe me. He tells his grandma that "It's just lines and shading". I can't wait to see what he drew to enter in the competition. I've told him I would like to use some of his artwork for a tattoo. When I told him that, he said he would draw up some stuff for me.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

just for fun

*pouts* Linky no worky.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

bits and pieces

Big Brother - Out of those two, I think I'm glad that Mike won. I would have preferred to see Will and Janelle in the F2, but oh well. I'm so tempted to see if I could get on that show. However, I would probably have to quit my job if I did get on - can't see my boss agreeing to just let me take a LOA for it.

Rock Star - I really don't want to see anyone good "win" this, because I think they deserve better than that. I'm loving Toby and Magni. I know a lot of peeps think Magni is "too vanilla", but I really dig his voice. Admittedly, he's not that exciting of a performer on stage, but I don't go to concerts anyway.

Best Finale ever has to go to Design Star, IMO. I LOVED this finale!

Work related rant - A denied claim is not the same as a rejected claim is not the same as a returned claim! Please! Learn the difference, and use the correct terminology!!!

In other news, I was Bob's favorite yesterday! :)

I have booked my flight to CA, but am now starting to wonder WTF am I doing???? My clothes are crappy, my hair (just got it cut) looks like crap, and what if I need to *poot*??? (Will I be able to blame that on Carey????)

Sunday, September 10, 2006

I found the perfect quiz for Carey!!!

You Are 16% Hypochondriac

While your physical health isn't always perfect, you don't freak out about it.
You know there's only so much you can do, and worrying doesn't change anything.


This one? *rolls eyes*
What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.

Your idea of fashion is jeans and a t-shirt. Clean, if you're lucky.

You are a little shy and easily embarrassed. You often wonder if you are normal.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Of no interest to anyone but me

*hops*

I'm going to California for a week in October. Catt has kindly offered to let me stay with her, but I'm still not sure I can impose on someone like that. I'm really excited that I'm finally going to get to meet Catt. I'm also excited about going to California. *makes note to find out how far from the ocean I will be* I've never seen an ocean, and didn't get to see the ocean when I was in Florida, so I really hope to do that. I also found out that San Jose has a quilt museum, so I may try to take that in while I'm there. If there is anyone in that area that would like to have a peep meet, just let me know.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

kind of interesting...

birthday info

My info:
Born on a Tuesday.
Life path #1:
The Life Path 1 suggests that you entered this plane with skills allowing you to become a leader type rather easily. Your nature is charged with individualistic desires, a demand for independence, and the need for personal attainment. Many of our military generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path 1. When you display positive 1 traits your mind is capable of significant creative inspiration, and it possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. You are very good at getting the ball rolling; initiating new projects is your forte. You are at your best when confronted with obstacles and challenges, as you combat these with strength and daring. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. You have a tendency to do this, even if, at times, it is not appropriate for you to do so.

Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You tire of routine and highly detailed tasks rather quickly.

You are ambitious and assertive in promoting yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you can be self-centered and demand to have your way in many circumstances. That said, for the most part, you are considered very good company, friendly, good-natured, and a wonderful conversationalist. People like you and are drawn to you. It is a good thing they are, because you are very sensitive to disapproval and you don't handle it very well.

There are several ways that the negative side of the 1 can show up. The 1 always has the potential for greatness as a leader, but they may fail as a follower. Unfortunately, sometimes you have to follow for a while before you are allowed to lead and this can be a difficult time. When the 1 Life Path person is not fully developed and expressing the negative side of this number, the demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent, particularly in the early years. If you are expressing this negative trait of the number 1, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances, and long for self-sufficiency. This might be defined as the weak or dependent side of the negative 1 Life Path. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Avoid being too bossy and demanding.

Astrological sign: Leo
Born in the Chinese Year of the Horse.
Native American Zodiac sign is Salmon; plant is Raspberry.
Birthstone is Peridot. Peridot is used to help dreams become a reality.

Your birth tree is
Cedar, the Confidence
Of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, wants to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy, optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

What my name "means":
Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

family photos

My niece:











My nephew:














Cousins:

Monday, September 04, 2006

from July

A couple of photos from our trip to the Memphis zoo.


Wednesday, August 30, 2006

New link

*points to the side*

For you crazy cat people, may I recommend clicking the Kittens of Darkness link? Check out the gallery. I think you might enjoy it.
Some people really just annoy the fuck out of me.

edit to add Question?
>Yeah, I had to search for
>a while until I realized
>that I could donate the
>books on CD to the
>local library or one of
>the organizations for the blind
>that my family supports.
That's a good idea. I have a blind friend that complains that not enough books come out on audio. He does NOT agree with the material that would come from FOF. It would make him laugh really hard, though.
>
>The books on homosexuality, however, I
>am keeping for myself.

not sure why you'd want them..but, OK.

Would replying to this comment with the following statement be bitchy, flaming, bashing, etc?
"How nice for HD that he has your approval."

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

From Journey's "Backyard BBQ" Tour in June

The guy in the green t-shirt? Tony Hawk (I don't remember the name of the other guy in the second pic)



















This is Shaun White, aka The Flying Tomato, aka Olympic Gold Medalist

















My son told me repeatedly what this guy's name is, but I can't remember. (What do you want from me??? I'm fucking old!)


But I do remember that this trick is the "Kiss of Death"

Confessions of a dork

This is one of my favorite times of the year. Why? Because it's getting close to the holidays. And that means that the stores are putting out their holiday merchandise, which includes all kinds of animated singing and dancing "things". I LOVE those things. A ghost that circles back and forth while singing "I Want Candy"? I love it! A turkey that moves up and down while singing "The Chicken Dance"? Too cute!!! A candy dish in the shape of a large spell book that has a cackling laugh or a couple of phrases everytime you open it? I bought 3 of them last year. I can't help myself. I will go up and down the aisles of the store, and turn on every last one of those things, and just sit there and watch them and laugh. I am also fascinated by the items that have the fiber optic lights. I could just watch those for hours.

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I love greeting cards. I will stand in that section of the store for 20 minutes, just reading the different cards. I love sending cards to people for no reason, just to say hi, or because I thought the card was funny, and thought the other person might enjoy it, too.

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I'm a sucker for gadgets. That's why I don't watch infomercials. I would be buying all that stuff all the time. It's a good thing I don't know anyone who has tupperware parties or other things like that, because I just have to have that stuff if I see it. It's a sickness. It really is.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

*melts*

For those who know how to get there, you should go check out CSTL's blog.

edit: moving this to the top

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

"It's the thought that counts"

But if the thought says "I don't give a fuck what you like" or "I can't be bothered to actually try to personalize a gift", then what?

The whole thing of gift giving makes me think sometimes that I'm from another planet. I am not only on another page, I'm in a different book. Sometimes, cash or a gift certificate is an appropriate and thoughtful gift. Other times, it says "I couldn't be bothered to put forth any effort or time for a gift for you." What brought this up today was I received a late birthday present from a co-worker. It was a very cute picture frame. After I unwrapped it, the co-worker made the comment that she just tries to give presents that are things she would like to get. I know a few people with this philosophy. Others just buy up generic things after the stores have marked down the prices significantly, and just basically give a grab-bag item. A former co-worker had asked me once, what I would like for a present. I told her specifically what I would want. I received something completely different. She then made the comment that she just didn't think what I said was a good present. OK, if it's something I want, something I would use, why is that a bad present? *shakes head*

Some questions for you:
A co-worker has a big life event coming up. As a group, you and others are going to take up donations, give one gift, and have a card.

Do you have all employees sign the card, or only the ones who donated?

Same scenario as above, except you are going to give the cash instead of buying a present. Do you keep a list of who donates and how much? And then do you give that list to the giftee?

If you are going to give a gift, do you just decide what you are going to buy and then tell everyone how much they have to give? Or do you take up money, people giving whatever they feel like, and then make your decision based on how much money you have?


My thoughts:
If the gift is from "all your co-workers", then I would prefer to have everyone sign, regardless of whether or not they made a monetary donation.

I thought keeping a list of who gave, and how much they gave was tacky. I was horrified to learn that the giftee was given the list. Had I known this was going to happen, I wouldn't have given anything.

I think you let people give what they are comfortable giving, and then buy a gift based on total contributions.

Monday, August 21, 2006

I should be sleeping...

Do you ever have those moments when you're so bored with everything, and you don't have any new reading material, and you have stuff to do, but you don't want to do it, so you just sit in front of the computer, and wonder where the hell everyone else is? Don't these people know that they exist solely for my amusement??? What the fuck?

I have a really bad habit when I'm bored. I start talking to myself, just crazy shit. My mind just starts racing from one weird idea to another.

I wonder about really stupid stuff sometimes. Of course, right now, I can't think of any of the more entertaining thoughts I've experienced before. I have such a horrible memory. And before anyone says it, it's not because of my age. I've always had a poor memory. I am the stereotypical absent minded person who will walk into a room, and suddenly not have a clue why I did it. I do that at work quite often. I will walk out of my office, start down the hall, and then stop and ask myself where the hell am I going, anyway? I had a purpose when I got up, but what was it??? So, then I have to cover for myself, and go to the office supply closet and get a pen or something, or go upstairs and check my mailbox. Just anything. And hoping I will remember what I got up for in the first place.

I do that with blogging ideas, too. Or for posts on OT. I'll think of something that, in my mind, is clever or thought provoking or whatever, but when I finally have time to sit down and post, *poof* ! the idea is long gone. One of the more recent thoughts to go poof was I wanted to thank Monsty for her prom thread. I had a real snarky comment to make about one of the posts, but then I couldn't remember for the life of me what it was.

I was really bored tonight. All the shows I was watching have ended. Hell's Kitchen - over. Whatever the other show I was watching - over. <---See? I can't even remember what show I was watching. Damn! What reality show was on Monday nights??? Or maybe it's not over, but I just can't remember the show's title, and so I just missed it. I have been watching Design Star, but it will be over soon. A few years ago, I was watching practically every reality show that was on. I don't do that now. There's too many!!! I'm amazed at these people who can name cast members for every season. Once the season's over, I move on, and forget pretty much everything I just saw. I can't wait for Bravo to air the 2nd season of Top Chef. Does anyone know when that is supposed to start? I've been lurking on the BB basher's forum. I really don't understand the venom that some people put out, especially over people they don't even know. It really makes me wonder about human nature sometimes. Why do people feel the need to tear down other people? (I include myself in this - I can make some of the bitchiest, cruel remarks that you will ever come across.) I really don't understand the bashing that some people do. I can deal with the second guessing of the game play, and saying the players should have/could have done things differently, but the personal remarks blow me away. I need a hobby. Last year, I had started making pillows, and I had planned on making a couple of quilts - one for arkieboy, and one for me. I sketched out the plan, even bought the material for arkieboy's, and that's as far as I've gotten. I need to start cutting out the material and making the blocks, but I keep getting hung up on the basics. I can't make my pattern to cut the blocks. If I ever get it made, it will be a pretty cool looking quilt. I just have to get started. I really miss the bar. I loved getting to chat with different people. Whenever I sign on to Yahoo IM, nobody's ever on. But even if someone was on, it's not like I really have anything to talk about. "What did you do today?" I went to work, and I came home. That would be the reply for anyday. I don't go anywhere, and I don't do anything. Do you ever just have bits of songs come to mind based on something someone else says? I do that with peoples posts all the time. And sometimes with mine. Just like that last paragraph made the song She's Lump by The Presidents of the United States come to mind.

Lump sat alone in a boggy marsh,
Totally motionless except for her heart
Mud flowed up into Lump's pajamas
She totally confused all the passing pirahnas

She's Lump, she's Lump
She's in my head
She's Lump, she's Lump, she's Lump
She might be dead

Lump lingered last in line for brains
And the one she got was sorta rotten and insane
Small things so sad that birds could land
Is Lump fast asleep or rockin' out with the band?

She's Lump, she's Lump
She's in my head
She's Lump, she's Lump, she's Lump
She might be dead

When Lump was limp and lonely and needed a shove
Lump slipped on a kiss and tumbled into love
She spent her twenties between the sheets
Life limped along at sub-sonic speeds

She's Lump, she's Lump
She's in my head
She's Lump, she's Lump, she's Lump
She might be dead

Is this Lump outta my head?
I think so
Is this Lump outta my head?
I think so
Is this Lump outta my head?
I think so
Is this Lump outta my head?


Meh. Could I be anymore insane? Seriously. It's 11:15, I need to go to bed, and instead I'm sitting here posting all kinds or random shit, none of which probably makes any sense.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

I felt like I should update...

But I really don't have anything new going on in my life...

I had a good hair day Wednesday, which was a real bonus, because that was the day my license expired, and so I have a better photo on my DL. Turns out I didn't need all the stuff I was told I would need to renew - all of that is only if you are getting a TN DL for the 1st time.

Work has been better this month. I was given specific things to do, and I completely kicked ass on what I was asked to do.

I've lost 4 pounds this past week.

My sleep has been kind of fucked up lately. I can't stay awake while I'm sitting up downstairs, but once I go upstairs and lay down, I lay there for so long before I can fall asleep. Then when morning comes, I can't wake up.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Two differing viewpoints

Both make me want to cry, but for very different reasons.

truthformen

http://www.moonspheres.com/iam.html

Friday, August 11, 2006

this and that

--Age--
Carey told me I'm an old fart, and let's face it, Carey knows all about farts, so she must be right. *grin* I'm turning 40 in just a few days. But it doesn't bother me. Yet. I freaked out when I turned 30. Was there any particular age that bothered you? Or one that you haven't reached yet, but are dreading?

--Peep Meet--
I had a peep meet Monday night. Batts was coming through Nashville on his way to Dayton, OH, so he and I had dinner Monday night, and got to know each other. I would have never guessed that he is 47. We were talking about some of the different peeps that post on the Real World/Road Rules forum, and it's so funny how we both assume that most of the other peeps are young, but then you start to realize that there's really quite a few people who... hmmm, let's just say that are in their 30's and up. Batts wanted to guess my age, and I'm not sure if he really thought what he guessed or if he was just blowing smoke up my ass. He said I look 28. I kinda think he fudged that guess, to be nice.

--Weekend plans--
Tonight, I'm supposed to be going to the bowling alley with a couple of friends. We're not sure if we're going to bowl, or just go to the bar and have a couple of drinks. I want to go see the movie
Barnyard (or is it Barnyard Animals??). I don't care if it is a kids' movie, I think it would be frikkin hilarious. I am also going to clean this mother-fucking house if it's the last thing I do. I have to find my birth certificate, because apparently I need that to renew my driver's licensce. It doesn't say that on the renewal notice they mailed to me, but one of my co-worker's had called, and that's what she was told to bring. I thought I knew where it was, but I was wrong. I have my birth card (which is an abstract of the actual certificate), but apparently that's not good enough. Which makes no sense. What the hell is the purpose of this card, if no one will accept it? It is issued from the same place as the certifcate, so what makes the piece of paper valid but not the plastic card?