A pinch of this, a dash of that

Bet you thought I was going to talk about cooking based on that title. Wrong! *sticks tongue out*

I need to reclaim my blog. I've lost sight of why I started blogging in the first place. I was going to say whatever I wanted to say, express whatever I was feeling, and then I started getting wigged out - thinking about who might read my blog and what they might think of me. But I'm over that. So, the blog is going public again. I will take the few links I have off, and won't have links, unless people specifically say I can link them. Just understand that this *is* a public blog, so, some stranger could find your blog through mine if I link you.

I came to the conclusion this morning that I need to get over myself already. And I have too much anger in me. I was running late (entirely my fault), and after dropping arkieboy off at school, was waiting to pull out on the main road. There was a lot of traffic, and I was getting pissed off because people were on the road, thereby delaying me. I'm sitting there cussing, just because people have the nerve to use a public road! How dare they? Don't they realize they are inconviencing me? Yeah. Definitely time to get over myself.

I've been feeling very disconnected from everyone lately. I blame Comcast. And work. No time at work to be on the internet, and very random connections at home. It will work for maybe a few hours, and then be off for days. I really need to call. I'm paying for 24 hour access, I should have 24 hour access, but if they don't know there's a problem, they're not going to be able to fix it, right?

I really do feel distant from you all. I hate it. I hate when life gets in the way. I hate being needy like this, too. I feel like I'm begging people to like me. And then I have to think, if they don't like me, maybe there's a reason for that. And maybe, it's not just that they have rotten judgement. *grin*

Well, back to work.

I had a thought that I wanted to share, but during the time that my internet connection has been out, I forgot it. Can I tell you how much Comcast sucks as an ISP? They totally bite like a big dog. I'm lucky it kicked back in tonight, but it will probably be off again tomorrow, and I just don't have time to call them and have an appointment for someone to come check it. Of course, every time I *do* call and set up an appointment, within 2 hours, it's back on.