A pinch of this, a dash of that.

1. Thanks to eBay, I was able to get the rest of the Wizard of Oz dolls from the McDonald's Happy Meals. And, they didn't cost me too awful much. I had checked craig's list, like HD and maybe someone else had suggested, but there was only one listing. The person had the whole collection for sale for $40.

2. I'm such a dork, but I'm not going to tell why.

3. Why do we not name names when we talk about someone? It's not like people don't figure out or already know who we're talking about. Now, if I was posting something slanderous (or would it be libelous?), obviously I wouldn't name names, but as far as saying someone annoys the hell out of me, why did I dance around saying it was agman?

4. I'm freaking out about my costume for our conference. I have just over two weeks to decide what I'm going to do, and to pull it together. But, unless I want to put it on the credit cards (and I don't), I have to wait until next Friday to purchase anything. That's what going for mani/pedi's two weeks in a row will do to the budget. I have $28 dollars to live on until my next payday (June 1). I had to take my change jar in and get a voucher from the CoinStar machine to buy groceries for the next two weeks. I'm just thankful I had the change jar. I was not looking forward to trying to eat for two weeks on just $28.

5. I really wish I wasn't too embarrassed about what makes me a dork to discuss it. Because I would *like* to discuss it, but it's just too dorky, even for me.

6. It's about to get crazy at work. I don't know if you remember when I posted about how the only intelligent person (besides my boss and myself) left the office, but now her replacement is leaving, too. And the other woman, who is super nice, but not very strong, work-wise, is taking another position within the office (different department). That leaves me and stinky-perfume woman in our department. I really don't want to have to help her keep things going, just because I.Don't.Like.Her. But I'll have to be professional about it. (piss on that)

7. The only major thing I accomplished this weekend was I did my laundry, and I changed the light bulbs in the kitchen. The last one had burnt out, so I really had no choice. I hate doing that. I have balance issues, and my step ladder really needs a couple more steps for me to feel comfortable on it. As it is, I have to stand on the very top step (ok, it only has two steps), and I have nothing to hang on to. I need to change the bulbs in my bedroom light fixture, but hey! I still have a lamp in there, so no hurry.

8. I have decided to continue with Curves. I am able to go up and down the stairs without the pain I was having earlier. And, even bigger, when I go up the stairs at work, I am able to actually have a conversation with someone immediately, instead of having to wait to catch my breath. But I didn't go tonight. So I must go tomorrow.

9. I need some drink recipes. I have vodka, Jack Daniels, rum, and tequila that I need to get out of the house before July when arkieboy moves back home. I also have 3 bottles of wine. One bottle, I'm going to just put up in my closet (on it's side, tilted down) because it's from my trip to California when Catt, Jimbo and I went wine-tasting. I'm not going to just guzzle it down or get rid of it.

10. I really hate my own cooking.

11. I'm still not sleeping very well. The doctor I saw for my sleep apnea gave me a prescription for sleeping pills when I went for my follow up. He and the pharmacist both told me not to take them every night. I've only taken one since I got them (it's been over a week). It took an hour and a half to kick in, and then I still woke up during the night.

12. Speaking of the sleep apnea, I got the bill for the two sleep study tests. After my insurance paid, and after the doctor's office gave me a "preferred client discount", I still owe $735. I guess I'm going to have to put it on the credit card.

13. I only have 8 more bi-weekly payments to make on my car. Woo Hoo!!!!

14. I really don't have anything else to say, but I can't leave off at #13.

15. I couldn't leave off at 14, either.

Time to step back

I have got to take a break from OT now. I find myself being extremely annoyed by one of the newer members of the community, and it's ridiculous to allow someone I don't even know to annoy me. I mean, it's not like I *have* to read his stupid, inane comments, but I do read them, and then I'm annoyed. So when something as stupid as someone posting absolutely useless commments for no other reason than to increase his/her DAW level is bugging me, it's time to step away from the computer.

Glowie's survey

1. If you went to dinner with Jesus who would pick up the check?
(I'll just go with Glowie's answer)I would but I really don't think a restaurant should make him pay.

2. If you had to eliminate one state from the United States, which one would it be?
Utah.

3. If Spiderman and Superman were forced to fight to the death, who would win? Why?
Superman. I don't think Spidey's web would be enough to defeat him.

4. Sawyer, Jack or Sayid?
who?

5. Mohinder, Nathan or Peter?
who?

6. For the next hour you have to listen to one song on repeat. What song is it?
Stevie Ray Vaughn's Cold Shot.

7. What is your favorite movie? Why?
I don't actually have a "favorite".

8. Who is your favorite actor/actress?
Johnny Depp

9. Avril Lavigne. Yes or no?
No, No, I don't want her, No, No, Her new song sucks, Hey, Hey, She makes me want to puke.

10. Do you have a job or a career?
I have a job.

11. Would you move out of state for a job?
I've done it before, so yeah.

12. Have any sharks been jumped by American Idol?
Of course not. They haven't been out on the water. *rolls eyes*

13. Have you ever gone to a concert by yourself? If so, would you do it again? If not, would you?
No. As for would I? I guess it would depend on the artist and how badly I wanted to see him/her.

14. Did your mom and/or dad make you do chores? If so, what were they?
Yes. I had to do laundry, and hang the clothes out on the line. I had to help cook. I also had to do dishes.

15. Would you go to a sex toy party with your mom?
gawd, no.

16. If you were to have a sex toy party, would you invite your boss?
Had one, and invited her.

17. How big is too big?
For what?

18. What is your favorite reality show?
Right now? Charm School.

19. Do you have a favorite reality show contestant?
Kinda, sorta.

20. Could you whistle that little tune at the beginning of Peter Bjorn and John’s “Young Folks” for me right now?
huh?

21. Howard Stern. Yes or no?
No.

22. Do you know any local bands that you would like to pimp?
No.

23. Name one state you would like to visit that you have not visited.
New Mexico.

24. Why would Pink perform on American Idol after adamantly not giving clearance for the contestants perform her songs?
I don't know. I don't have a problem with it, though. If I was a song writer and/or recording artist, I wouldn't want some of those people butchering my work.

25. Multi-grain, wheat or white?
Wheat or white.

26. Carrots dipped in peanut butter?
*pukes*

27. Do you add extra butter to your popcorn at the movie theater?
Yes.

28. Do you have a favorite pair of underwear? What do they look like?
No. I had to throw out my favorite pair, and haven't bought anymore like that. I love "Cheekies".

29. Name one country song that will help convince non-fans that it isn’t all bad.
Yeah, right.

30. What is in the trunk of your car?
A pen and an air compressor thingy.

31. What is the first thing that comes to your mind when I say Marky Mark?
Mahky Mahk the Aardvahk (the invisible pet Monsty gave me.)

32. Which character from a movie or television show would you be?
Which ever character that gets busy with Johnny Depp or Hugh Jackman.

33. Who was the last person you hugged?
My son.

34. Have you ever been on a cruise?
No.

35. Will Glowie be able to sleep in a tiny closet-sized room on a cruise ship with no windows while constantly worrying and missing my kids?
I don't know, but I'm getting claustrophobic just thinking about it.

Unbelievable...

I did it again. I went for another mani/pedi this afternoon. While the girl is finishing up on my fingernails, my cell phone starts ringing. Since the phone is in my purse, I ignore it. I walk back to the dryer area, my phone rings again. Again, I ignore it. A third call. One of the manicurists was walking by at that time, and asked it I wanted her to get my phone for me. I say yes, and she gets it out for me. 3 missed calls from my mom's phone number. I call back. It was arkieboy who had been calling. Why? Because I had told him 30 minutes earlier when we talked, that I would call him later. I tell him what I'm doing, and I will call when I'm finished. I end the call, go to set my phone down, and you guessed it! I smudged the hell out of one of the nails. And guess what? It was the same damn finger that I messed up last week.

This week's color is Cara Mia Crimson, on fingers and toes.

There's a reason why

I don't get manicures. After eating at Chili's, I decide to treat myself and get a manicure and pedicure. I must say, it's quite nice having a man rub my feet. Anyway, after getting all pampered, and sitting with my hands and feet under the UV light and fan to get the polish set, I drive home. I'm being oh-so-careful. I pull into my drive, put the car in park, and go to turn off the ignition. That's when it happened.



I don't know if you can tell from the photo, but as I was taking the key out of the ignition, the chain on my key chain scraped across my nail, and messed up the polish. I am so pissed. It's shit like this that makes me feel almost inadequate as a woman. Women all over the place get manicures, and their nails look nice, and I can't even make 10 minutes before I fuck it up.

Why I don't like country music...

If you received one of the drunk phone calls, you know why I'm posting this.

I don't like country music because, well, it sucks. I don't like "twangy" music. I don't like most of the lyrics. And my ex-husband would listen to only country music on the radio when I was in the car with him.

One reason I love my job

I get emails like this:

Freda, Freda, she's the best;
she's better than all the rest.
Her hair is perfect, her face divine;
if I swung the other way, I'd make her mine!!!!!!!

Maundering

I started an exercise program Thursday. I had received a flyer from Curves. They were looking for volunteers for a fitness study program. All I have to do is pay a $20 refundable deposit, show up 3 times a week for three weeks, and exercise. At the end of the three weeks, as long I was never a no-call/no-show, I get my $20 back. So, I went through the circuit once Thursday, and then started my 3-a-week on Friday. The normal program is to go through the circuits twice. I felt tired but good after doing this. Unfortunately, the feeling good did not last.

I had been experiencing pain in my knees off and on since December. The bowling on Fridays was aggravating my discomfort. After bowling was over, I hadn't noticed a lot of pain, just when I would go up and down stairs. However, Friday night was a different story. The pain was a lot like a charley-horse, but only when I tried to move my leg. Once I either straightened it, or rolled over and quit moving, the pain more or less went away. This morning, it took quite some time to get up out of bed, and a lot of time to be able to stand up after I went to the bathroom. The really sharp pain, which was at the top of my calf has gone away for the moment, but now there's a more general pain around my knee cap.

I'm trying to decide if I need to should get it checked by a doctor or just suck it up, and work through it. I'm leaning more towards the latter.

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Arkieboy will be moving back home this summer. He's finally ready to come back home. I'm really glad he's coming home. But I'll have to adjust to having someone else in the house with me again. I guess I'll have to start cooking again. I am excited to have him back with me, but I've gotten so used to be alone and having the quiet in the evenings and weekends. And I'll need to get all the booze out of the house. I don't drink around him. I know this is kind of hypocritical on my part - being someone else dependant on whether my son is around or not.

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I went for a follow up on my use of the CPAP machine on Wednesday. The machine has a "smart card" that records my usage and if there is any leakage. I understand how it would record the usage times, but not how it can tell if there's leakage. Oh, well, I guess I don't really need to understand that. Anyhoo, apparently I had a LOT of leakage. So, they put me on a different type of mask.

He was going to try me on this, but I have petite nostrils (which I've never thought so, but that's what the guy said), and it doesn't come in petite. The small one wouldn't fit and there was too much leakage.




So, I've got this.




It's a good thing I sleep alone. I feel like a dork when I have this on. But, even though I had a lot of leakage with the first mask, and I haven't been able to keep either style of mask on for an entire night, I do feel a little bit more rested. So, I guess it's worth it. {/disgusted voice}

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On the topic of religion... To me, faith is such a personal issue. I know I've talked about it a few times, but for the most part, I tend to keep my views to myself. But on another board I go to (at the dating site), someone had asked about how important it was for someone you date to share the same beliefs. One of the women there, that I admire as being very well-spoken, answered with this:
"no. it doesn't matter to me what ones beliefs are.
if mine (atheist) doesn't bother them---which, so far, hasn't been an issue, even with my male friends that were raised in strict Catholic environments (schooled), then it's all good to me.

by my age and place in this world, I haven't found religion to be a problem for me.
unless others even know that I am an atheist, they wouldn't have a clue. I don't expound on my beliefs---or lack of. when my ex-nun boss says that she will pray for me when I've experienced health issues. I accept her graces and move on.
most people that I know are believers of one kind or another and I really don't care!

I am am honestly and truly happy for those that find comfort in the words of their god."

I just thought that was such a refreshing attitude, when there are people on OT who either shove their beliefs down your throat or ridicule others as being simplistic, ignorant or whatever.

I invited this woman to check out OT a few weeks ago. I don't know if she has, but I really wish she would. I think she would be a wonderful addition to the board.

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I stole my idea for my title from Jen. I went to thesaurus.com and found another way to say ramblings. Actually, it's to talk incoherently, which I do quite often.

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There's a job opening in our office. After the email went out with the in-house posting, my boss sent the email to those of us in her department with a message. "NO". The company policy about this is that you have to have your supervisor's consent. Which, if we really wanted to change positions, I don't think anyone in a supervisory position in our company would hold anyone back. For one thing, it is a really big thing that they like to promote from within whenever possible. Two, if someone's not happy in their position, you might as well let them go, because at least that way they stay in the company (assuming that they are a good employee that you want to keep). Anyway, I replied backing, asking if that meant I should tear up the resume I was working on. A little bit later, a fax had come across for my supervisor, and I carried it to her. She looked at me, and said I was NOT applying for the position. I'm saying, No, no, it's just a fax. Then, and this is when I really need that filter from brain to mouth, I said do you really think I want to work with that bunch? [/disgusted, scornful voice] I mean, you talk about some uptight, BORING people. Ugh. I wouldn't be able to stand it. And it's not like I would be trading up as far as offices go. That office may be a little bit larger, but it's upstairs where they keep it too friggin hot, and even though it's on an outside wall, it doesn't even have a window. And to me, the job would be boring. I know, to a lot of people, *MY* job would be boring. Hell, it's boring to me some days. It's not been too bad lately - I've got to work on cleaning up the aging for a couple of facilities. I know that doesn't sound fun. But I like collecting money. And it's one of the few times I can see tangible results of what I do.

"The List"

1) Zombs
2) HD

My OCD-ness in action

So, McDonald's was giving these away with their happy meals a few weeks ago.



And as much as I really don't need to be eating at McDonald's, (and I really don't like their hamburgers), I went there repeatedly. However, I didn't realize until the 2nd week, that they were giving the dolls away 2 per week. So I missed out on Glinda the Good Witch. Then, tonight, I just realized that I ended up with two of the Tin Man, and two of the Wicked Witch of the East. So, not only do I not have Glinda, I don't have the ScareCrow, and whatever the other one was. Glinda's the good witch of the North, right? So I'm assuming the 8th doll is the good witch of the South.

My OCD is such that it just kills me to have an incomplete set of something. I can't believe I didn't notice until tonight that I had duplicates. (Duplicates bother me, too.) It is going to drive me nuts that I don't have all of them. I'll probably just give them to my niece. I really can't stand to not have the whole set.

*head tilt*

I normally stay out of the bickering/debating, whatever you want to call it, that goes on because I am a non-confrontational type of person. And I really don't give a fuck who is calling who names. But sometimes you see something, and you just have to call bullshit.

Here in blogland, there are two separate blogs that have posts entitled "Bitter Old Hag". It's not my fight, but I have been reading the blogs and the comments. Could someone explain to me how a person who says: "I'm going to stay out of this for obvious reasons. *holds up Switzerland flag*", is going to accomplish 'staying out of it', when she posts this: "That's because you are a bigger person than I. Because I would have bitchslapped someone by now. Hard." on the other blog. To me, "holds up Switzerland flag" says you're neutral. But saying you would have bitchslapped someone by now, is not a very neutral position. IMO. YMMV.

So, in conclusion, Bullshit!

Bits and pieces

I went today to pick up my CPAP machine. Thank god that they have more (and better) options than what they just use at the sleep study clinic. The one I have *does* have head gear, but it's more like a plug that I put in my nose instead of a mask. I really think I might be able to deal with this. Oh, and a big

to all of those who say I have an accent! The guy at United Medical (who is from Seattle) asked where I was from, because he could tell I wasn't originally from TN. He said I talk like him. When I said I was from Arkansas, he was really surprised. So there! I don't have an accent! *sticks tongue out*

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That was not necessary.
As many of you are aware, I read a lot of romance novels, particularly paranormal romance. I just finished a book the other night that I'm just not sure what to think about it. I had posted a few weeks ago that I had read one that involved a wolf and a man, and that was disturbing. But oddly enough, I think I am just as disturbed by the fact that in this other book I read (different author), that the author chose to include a sex scene (in some detail) between two horses. Seriously. I soooo did not need to read about horse sex. Especially considering this was a "romance" novel, and she did not build their story at all. I didn't feel the love growing. /tongue in cheek

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I had mentioned that I was trying to plan a vacation for this summer for me and arkieboy, and that he wanted to do something "BIG" for his birthday. Several of you had given me some great suggestions for our destination. Arkieboy shot every one of them down. Why? He didn't want to spend his vacation doing a peep meet. He asked me if we went somewhere that an OT and/or blog peep lived, would we have to spend time with them? I told him no, not the whole time, but maybe a meal, maybe a few hours sightseeing. But he doesn't want to do that. *sigh* I understand why he feels like that, though. This vacation is his birthday week. Our vacations during that week have always been about him. He doesn't want to change that. So he has decided that what he wants is to come up here, and for me to take him to Opry Mills and just give him money and let him loose. He's so funny. He suggested that I give him $20 x his age. Right. Sure I will.

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*snerk*

As some of you know, I sometimes write "poetry". I had been told by a couple of people that I should try to get some of my writings published. So, a while back, I submitted one of my poems to poetry.com. The cynic in me says that anyone, no matter what they submitted, would receive one of these:


They are including my poem in their spring poetry publication. I can purchase a copy of this "deluxe hardbound edition" for a discounted price of $49.95. OR... I could buy a full case (12) for $369.00. Yeah, right. I can also purchase a commemorative plaque for just $38.00. I'm tempted by the plaque, but I could always go somewhere else and have one made, probably. When I received my award (*points up*) in today's mail, the enclose letter also informed me of another recognition for which I've been chosen.

I quote: "Every so often, as our Editors review the poems that have been presented our Editor's Choice Award, they personally select a few poems that they believe would have a wonderfully expressive quality if read by a professional reader. Your Editor has suggested that you become one of 33 poets whose artistry will be recorded professionally as a special part of a new CD poetry collection - The Sound of Poetry."
And this 3 CD set can be mine for the price of just $49. I have to admit, I'm curious how someone would interpret my poem to read aloud. I'm not even sure how *I* would read it aloud. But there is no way in hell I'm going to pay $49 for a CD set of poems being read, just to hear how mine sounds.

Sleep, or the lack thereof

I haven't been sleeping good lately. I've been tired since last October. It's gotten worse in the past month. It's so hard to wake up in the mornings. I've actually slept through my alarm for almost an hour a few times. Some days, it's all I can do to stay awake at work. (Says a lot for how interesting my job is, yes?) But at night, I can't sleep. I toss and turn, and wake up ridiculously early (2 or 3 am), and can't fall back asleep until almost time to get up. When I went to the doctor two weeks ago, I mentioned being tired all the time. He referred me to a sleep clinic. Last night, I went for the sleep study. I never sleep good when I'm in a strange bed. Add in all the electrodes that were attached to my head and body, and this equals a very bad night of sleep for arkie. I don't understand how they expect someone to be able to sleep with all this stuff attached to them. I had leads taped to each calf, one to my back, another to my chest, another one held in place across my chest with a velcro band, and yet another one on a velcro band that was supposed to be around my lower waist (but kept riding up during the night). I had a microphone taped ot my neck, in case I snore. Two electrode leads were glued and taped to my chin, and another two by my eyes. I'm not really sure how many were stuck to my head. I also had a pulse-oximeter on one finger, and two things in my nose. One was to measure the temperature of the air I breathe out. I don't know what the other one's purpose was. So all these wires attach to a box, which is then attached to another box.

This is what a person looks like once everything is hooked up:

(picture from :http://www.talkaboutsleep.com/sleep-basics/viewasleepstudy.htm)

I have a tendency to roll from one side of the bed to the other when I sleep, but I couldn't do that last night. Every time I tried to roll over to my other side, I ended up laying on the wires, and it would pull on the ones on my head. I woke up, not sure what time it was and laid there for a while (seemed like forever), thinking it had to be close to time to get up. Finally I sat up, and the tech came on the intercom to see if I needed something. I had to use the bathroom. Just imagine trying to go to the bathroom with all that stuff on you. Imagine the fun of trying to pull your pants back up one-handed, because the other hand is holding the box and wires. Try to wash one hand. Not fun. When I got back in the bed, I asked the tech what time it was. It was only 2:40. *sigh* Wake up time wasn't until 5:00. But I did manage to go back to sleep.

I don't get the official report until the doctor reviews everything, and he will call Monday or Tuesday. But the tech said I did have some problems. I get to go back on the 21st, and do it all over again, this time I get to sleep while wearing a CPAP machine. Oh, joy! But supposedly, this will allow me to sleep better and wake up feeling refreshed, so I guess it's worth it.

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Mom

When I was visiting my parents while my brother and nephew were down two weeks ago, I noticed that my mom had a really nasty sore on the top of her foot. I asked her what had she done (dropped a piece of firewood on it), had she gone to the doctor (no), well then was she at least putting something on it, like TAO? (no, she had been putting vaseline on it, but then it started burning, so she stopped, but she was soaking it in something - I think she said epsom salts). So, then when I went down again that weekend (arkieboy was in a play), I didn't mention it. But yesterday when I drove down, I asked her about it, and she said it was starting to hurt. So, are you going to the doctor? (yes, Tuesday morning). This morning, while I was drinking my coffee, I was talking to Momma, and made a crack about how they were going to cut off her foot - actually, not the first time I brought this up as a possibility - and made a "buzzsaw" noise. Arkieboy and I came back to Tennessee today, and while we were walking around in a store, my dad called me. I asked how things went, and he said not good. Mom is in the hospital, and he said that might have to cut off her foot. So, he gave me the number and I called Mom. First thing she says, "you had to joke about it. Now see?" Then she told me that the wound doctor (do they really have a specialty for this?) said that they would have to cut out some of the dead tissue, but that it should heal without any problems. She's going to have to stay a couple of days. I asked if she needed me to come back down. She told me no, for me & arkieboy to enjoy our time together because we don't get that much. I feel torn. Do I be the dutiful daughter and go down to take care of my mom, or do I be the mom who promised this week to her son? I really think arkieboy would understand if we had to go back. But I know he would be really disappointed.

Good thoughts and vibes, please??

Today is a beautiful day

These are all from my front yard. This first one was taken a couple of weeks ago? One week ago? Well, it was when aliens overtook Bob's body and/or blog and she posted about buying flowers for her co-workers.


These two were taken a couple of days ago.

I am having a very pleasant day today. It could be my meds have kicked back in (I had stopped taking one of them for about a month), or it could be that I'm on vacation now, and I'm not worrying about time, getting anywhere, just having a "me" day. I am seriously not worrying about time. Friday when I came home from work, I discovered that the electricty had gone off. After maybe an hour, it came back on. When I went upstairs to bed that evening, my alarm's digital clock was flashing. It had that it was 4:00. I hit the minute button to make it stop flashing, and I still haven't fixed the time on it. Or on my microwave, or on my stove. So, when I woke up this morning, the clock showed the time as 12:00. So, I really don't know what time I woke up, and I don't care. That is so liberating. I did have to go to the office briefly today, but the rest of the day has just been free. I like it.

I hope everyone else has had a wonderful weekend.


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Memphis in May Beale Street Music Festival, May 4-6

*pouts*
I wanna go...
Friday's lineup:

The Allman Brothers Band
Three 6 Mafia
Koko Taylor
Gov't Mule
Social Distortion
Richard Johnston
Sharde Thomas and The Rising
Star Fife and Drum Band
Robert "Wolfman" Belfour
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Jerry Lee Lewis
Chevelle
Hubert Sumlin & Willie Big Eyes Smith
Plain White T's
The Derek Trucks Band
North Mississippi Allstars
Popa Chubby


Saturday's lineup:

Steely Dan
Godsmack
George Thorogood
Bobby "Blue" Bland
The Bar-Kays
Wolfmother
The Ohio Players
Walter Trout &The Radicals
Kenny Wayne Shephard
Taking Back Sunday
Taj Mahal
Ryan Shaw
Kelley Hunt
Old Crow Medicine Show
Jack's Mannequin
The John Butler Trio
Keller Williams
Alvin Youngblood Hart
Eddie Floyd
One Less Reason
The Duhks
Daddy Mack Blues Band
Hawthorne Heights
David Honeyboy Edwards
Keller Williams (I'm not sure why Keller Williams is listed twice - keying error? Maybe there are two performances?)

Sunday's lineup:

Counting Crows
John Legend
Hinder
Elvin Bishop
Barenaked Ladies
Corinne Bailey Rae
DAUGHTRY
Tab Benoit
Guster
Edwin McCain
Project Pat
Backdoor Slam
Umphrey's McGee
Ann Peebles
Papa Roach
Watermelon Slim
Billy Lee Riley
Egypt Central
The Lee Boys
James "Super chikan" Johnson

Yeah, yeah...

You nag someone to update, then they expect you to do the same...

I went to Arkansas again this weekend. Arkieboy was in a play, put on by the school. It was as good as you would expect a high school production to be. It wasn't bad, really. They had a dinner theater performance Saturday night and an afternoon matinee on Sunday. I went to the dinner theater. I do not miss cafeteria food. *blech*

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In case anyone is wondering, bestiality is not erotic. It's just not. I had went to the bookstore yesterday after I got back home, and picked up a couple of books. One was in the erotica genre. I was rather grossed out by the scene where the wolf raped the man. Call me judgemental, but I think if that turns a person on, that person is disturbed. YMMV.

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I catalogued my books last week. I have over 340 books, most are paperbacks, and most are romances. I need more bookcases.

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I have to make two more trips to Arkansas before this month is over. I will be driving down Sunday to pick up arkieboy. He will be on spring break, and wants to spend the week up here. Then I will have to take him back on Saturday. I swear, my next vacation is going to consist of me curling up in my bed or on the couch and reading for the entire week. I will NOT be driving anywhere. Which means I will have to take vacation again before summer. I always take the week of arkieboy's birthday (in July), and this year he wants to do something "big". I told him he's going to have to hurry up and decide what that will be, and stick to whatever he decides. I will need to book flights, etc, and once that's done, there will be no changes. *puts foot down*

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My left lower leg is cramping.

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The amount of perfume being used at work has been cut back. Thank you!!! Of course, to compensate for that, someone brought in a potted hyacinth. I love how they look, but their scent is so overpowering.

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My ex-husband disgusts me sometimes. Arkieboy showed his father a picture of one of his (female) friends, who is 2-3 years younger than arkieboy (which makes her 12 or 13). DH (short for dickhead) told arkieboy "she's a hottie". Dude. DUDE! You are 36 years old. Referring to a girl of that age as a Hottie is just wrong for someone your age!!! I'm hoping that he didn't really mean that he thought the girl was truly a hottie, but was just trying to have "guy talk" with arkieboy. I still don't think that's actually appropriate conversation for a dad to have with his son, but at least it's slightly more tolerable than a 36 y.o. saying a 13 y.o. is hot.

Back home

I had a nice visit with my brother and my oldest nephew. My nephew is funny. Maybe I just think that because he has the same type of sarcastic sense of humor I do.

My parents watch my sister's two kids 2-3 times a week, and today was one of those days. My niece has a very smart mouth on her. My dad encourages that type of behavior when it's directed towards other people. Of course, he expects the kids to not talk to him that way, but they quickly develop a distinct lack of respect for him because he constantly gives mixed messages on what is appropriate. Anyway, my niece was showing out, and my oldest nephew said it was like watching an episode of Supernanny gone bad. I was LMAO.

Oldest nephew:

Youngest nephew:

Mein bruder



Tante Freda und ihre Nichte, Kaitlin

The Donkey

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do.

Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway;
it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping,
never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

Live simply and appreciate what you have.

Give more.

Expect less


NOW ............

Enough of that crap . . The donkey later came back, and bit the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected and the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock.


MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:

When you do something wrong, and try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.

*hops*

In the next few days, I will get to see my brother and my oldest nephew, neither of whom I have seen in about 12 years. They live in Idaho, and are driving to Arkansas to see the parents/grandparents. Even though this is *not* a good time for it, my boss is letting me take a couple of vacation days so I can drive down to visit.

This is my nephew, "D", from a couple of years ago:




And here's one of arkieboy from a few days ago:

I'm a Ford Mustang!

You're an American classic -- fast, strong, and bold. You're not snobby or pretentious, but you have what it takes to give anyone a run for their money.

"Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

New crush

Music Video:THIS IS LIVING (by Steven Strait)

Music Video Code provided by VideoCodeZone.Com

I wish I could find a code for "Boomerang" that I could get to work here. I LOOOOOVE this song.

Because you just can't have too many quizzes and other useless things...

You Are Strawberry Cake

Fresh, sassy, and romantic. You're a total flirt, who never would turn down a sugary treat. Occasionally you're a bit moody - but you usually stay sweet!

What Kind of Cake Are You?

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm. Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

And from LunaNina.com - Unconscious mutterings
I say... and you think...?

1. Nude ::


2. Support ::


3. Rachel::


4. Crane ::


5. Candy bar ::


6. Material ::


7. Mind games ::


8. Eviction ::


9. Produce ::


10. Joke ::

And to think,

I thought I was the queen of overshare. Apparently, I haven't shared as much about myself as I thought. *grin*

I came to RealityTVWorld looking for information on Big Brother. My first post, however, was on the Paradise Hotel forum. Nobody invited me to OT. Bravie had invited someone else on the AI forum to OT, and I thought I would check it out (after I finally figured out what OT stood for). Bravie was the first to send me a red wavy, telling me that no matter what everyone else said, *she* thought I was a good addition to OT.

I've had a few peep meets, my first being in Knoxville where I got to meet Nookie, Mr. Nookie, Vols, Farmboy (who no longer posts), and of course Bruiser! I still haven't met Syren, though. *pouts* I will have to make my way down to Atlanta sometime soon. My peep meet in Texas was with frankz. I didn't meet any OT peeps in Florida.

Even though I am *still* jonesing for more tattoos, I'm still at just one, my beautiful (mostly purple) pegasus. Purple is, after all, my favorite color. But that's not why I colored my hair purple once. That was an accident. I didn't even realize how purple it was until the next day at work. I wondered why the VP kept staring at my hair when he was talking to me that day. Then when I was coming back from lunch, I had glanced over at one of the windows and saw my reflection. Wow. My hair was VERY purple. But it has never been colored black.

My first kiss was with a guy named John. I know I've shared this before, when I still had my comments turned on to where anyone could comment. I remember Monsty posted a joke comment using the name "John". *grin*

My prom was not good. I didn't date much in high school. (You've seen the photos, so you know why.) I had went out with Gary once or twice, but I just wasn't in to him. But I wanted to go to prom. So, I asked a friend to ask him (this *was* high school), but to stress that it would be just as friends. I thought he was ok with this. Anyway, a couple of things happened. Gary didn't drink - he had an ulcer - so I had planned on going out to the parties by myself after prom. This hurt his feelings. Also, he had been dancing with another girl, which was fine with me, so I had danced a couple of times with Roland, a guy in my honors english class. Well, my friend Amanda took it upon herself to tell Roland that he had her permission to dance with me once more, but then he was to leave me alone for the rest of the night. When Roland told me what Amanda had said, I was so ticked off. Then, Amanda and Art (her BF, my ex) told Gary what I had planned about having him taking me home, and then me going back out. Gary started crying. I cannot deal with a guy who cries that easily. Especially when we were just there as friends! So, I left with Roland.

Arkieboy is named after Clint Eastwood. Well, he's actually named after his father, too, for the middle name, but "Clint" came from Clint Eastwood. His dad & I loved watching Clint Eastwood movies - that was one of the few things we actually did together.

I think #13 was not read the way I meant it. I asked how many cars I had in the last two years, not how many I had got. I had 3 - the Tempo which had the rear bumper ripped off. The Tempo's replacement was the Malibu, which had the front bumper ripped off and the front pushed in. And finally the Malibu's replacement, the Cavalier. Almost 12 months, and no accidents!!! Yay me!!!
I have never had a Chevy Silverado. I wanted one, and almost got one when I was 21 or 22, but the bank wouldn't finance the total amount the guy was wanting. The guy at the shop had done some custom paint on it, and was including the price of that in his price for the truck. But the bank said that made it "not the original paint" and therefore, less in value. So instead, I got the Mercury Cougar.

And finally, I have yet to try a Merlot that I like.

New test

Create your own Friend Test here

Stole this idea from HD...

Create your own Friend Test here

Personality test

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked
yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?

A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of
well known and modern cartoon characters.
The information that was gathered was made into this test.

Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up
all your points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the
end, and look for your results.

Do not cheat by looking at the end of the e-mail before you are done.

Then forward this to all your friends (including the person who sent it
to you) and change the subject of this message to what character is you.

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?

A) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)

B) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)

C) Painting in the park (5 pts)

D) Rock concert (1 pt.)

E) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favorite type of music?

A) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)

B) Alternative (1 pt.)

C) Soft Rock (4 pts.)

D) Country (5 pts.)

E) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?

A) Comedy (2 pts.)

B) Horror (1 pt.)

C) Musical (3 pts.)

D) Romance (4 pts.)

E) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could
choose one of these?

A) Waiter (4 pts.)

B) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)

C)Teacher (3 pts.)

D) Police (2 pts.)

E) Cashier (1 pt)

5. What do you do with your spare time?

A) Exercise (5 pts.)

B) Read (4 pts.)

C) Watch television (2 pts.)

D) Listen to music (1 pt.)

E) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?

A) Yellow (1 pt.)

B) White (5 pts.)

C) Sky Blue (3 pts.)

D) Dark Blue (2 pts.)

E) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?

A) Snow (3 pts.)

B) Pizza (2 pts.)

C) Sushi (1 pt.)

D) Pasta (4 pts.)

E) Salad (5 pts.)

8. What is your favorite holiday?

A) Halloween (1 pt.)

B) Christmas (3 pts.)

C) New Year (2 pts.)

D) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)

E) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places, which one would it be?

A) Paris (4 pts)

B) Spain (5 pts)

C) Las Vegas (1 pt)

D) Hawaii (4 pts)

E) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?

A) Someone Smart (5 pts.)

B) Someone attractive (2 pts.)

C) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)

D) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)

E) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting
for!












(10-16 points) You are Garfield:
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to
have fun, but sometimes you take it to an extreme.
You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your
life.
Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you
always have to do what is right.
Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:
You are fun, you are very cool and popular.
You always know what's in and you are never are out of style.
You are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else.
You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once, but you
always come home with the family values that you learned.
Being married and having children are important to you, but only after
you have had your share of fun times.

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:
You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to
give advice and help out a person in need.
You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things.
Some good advice:
try not to be too much of a dreamer.
Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves.
You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to
lose.
You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your
feelings.
Life is a journey - it's funny and calm for the most part.
Stay away from traitors and jealous people, and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:
You are tender, you fall in love quickly, but you are also very serious
about all relationships.
You are a family person.
You call your Mom every Sunday.
You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays.
Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points) You are Dexter:
You are smart and definitely a thinker...
every situation is fronted with a plan.
You have a brilliant mind.
You demonstrate very strong family principles.
You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it
comes.
Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a
bit with spontaneity!

The randomness that is Arkie's brain.

So. Glow said I should update. So here goes.

~I've spent probably $200 on books this month alone. I have $75 worth of books on order, just waiting for the release dates.

~I haven't been drinking as much. Don't know why, just haven't. But I have been trying new things to drink, when I drink. Tonight, I had a Woodchuck Amber Cider. It was good. Last Friday night, I finally tried a Killian's. Meh. It was ok. It really didn't live up to the hype.

~I've always felt that whatever people are in to, that's their business. Just because it's not my thing, doesn't mean anything. But I really don't get this. I guess I just always thought that people who screwed animals did it because there were no other options. (Not that I'm condoning that either way, just that was why I thought they actually did it.) But if you're buying a blow up toy, and you choose an animal one over a person one, that's just weird to me.

~I'm having lots of breathing problems at work. The other day, I could feel my throat closing up. I blame it on the stinky perfume that the bitch wears. I'm sorry, but if I can smell you from 10 feet away, YOU'RE.WEARING.TOO.MUCH.DAMN.PERFUME. Some days? I smell more than just the perfume. Those days, I have trouble keeping my food down.

~Shredded Wheat cereal may be healthy, but I hate that crap. My mom used to buy that when we were kids. That was so gross. Why bother buying the cereal? Just go graze in your yard.

~American Idol. I'm loving it. I think Simon is almost always spot on. Sure, sometimes he's a little harsh, but I think he has to be to counter-act Paula's gushing. Lakisha should win.

~Ugly Betty is my new favorite show.

~I said something really mean about one of the men in the office last Friday night. But it was basically true, so I don't care.

~I'm starting to slide back into the mode of "men are scummy perverts." What *is* the female equivalent of a misogynist? I just get so frustrated when I have to deal with a person who thinks that the dangly bit between his legs somehow makes him smarter than me. It doesn't, asshole.

~I have a crush on my bartender.

~I've never been banned from a message board.

~screen names - I'm curious... for those of you who go to other boards, do you use the same name as your RTVW name, or do you have different names for each board?

~I'm going to bed now, so I can read the book I bought today.

Bowling

A couple of years ago I posted this. Well, finally, after bowling for 7 years now, I've actually started to improve. For the last two weeks, I have bowled better than I ever have. I'm still not good, I'll probably never have a 200 game, but I'm still happy with this. Last week I bowled a 120, 109, 148, and then last night I bowled a 103, 130, and 148.

I'm on a completely different team this year. I wasn't even going to bowl. M had left the company (her position was phased out), J went back to Arkansas (the damn hussy), and when I talked to S, she didn't really want to bowl either. M had said she still wanted to bowl, but I wasn't too sure that she would want to drive down every Friday night to bowl. Plus I was really afraid that M & S would want T to be our 4th. And there was just no way in hell I was going to spend my Friday nights with someone I really don't like to be around. But then one of the guys in the office was getting a team together and asked if I wanted to be on it. Just me & 3 guys who like to drink and tell dirty jokes. My kind of people. *grin* I am really having fun. Probably because I'm actually doing better for once. One of the other men in the league complimented me last night, and said I was really improving, and that it was because my form was so much better than last year, and I was consistent. Which is funny, because I have always thought I was doing everything the same each time, anyway. When I said that, he just shook his head and said "no, you weren't."

From my fortune cookie

Cultivation to the mind is as necessary as food to the body.


In bed.

A Myspace meme/thing...

One of my friends posted this Myspace bulletin. I was actually her number 3. She totally made me laugh my ass off, and y'all might not get any of the jokes, but I wanted to post this here anyway because the bulletins fall off after 10 days, I think, and I wanted to keep this.

Can u answer 22 questions about ur number 3?
DON'T change your top friends, and answer 22 questions about the 3rd person in your top friends.

1) What's their name?
Freda

2) Do you trust them?
Yes

3) Where did you meet them?
Diversicare in Franklin, TN

4) How old were you when you first met?
I was 32

5) Is this person one of your best friends?
Yes

6) Say something that only makes sense to you and them?
*hack, hack* What's that smell?

7) Is this person older than you?
yes

8) When was the last time you saw them?
December 28, 2006...my last day of work in TN

9) When was the last time you talked to them on the phone?
Last Friday....I think

10) Are you related to this person?
no

11) When will you see them again?
Whenever I can get her to come down here and smack me...as she keeps threatening to do.

12) Describe a fond memory.
Bar at the bowling alley...nuff said

13) Are you their b/f or g/f?
No

14) Do y'all have a nicknames for each other?
Well...she's called me a hussy before...does that count?

15) Do you have pics of this person on your myspace?
No

16) How many times do you talk/write to this person in a week?
A few

17) Do you think they will repost this?
maybe

18) Could you live with each other?
it's doubtful...we both think we're the queen of the freakin' universe...

19) Who would win a fight?
It depends on who is having the worse PMS case at the time...

20) Why is this person in your top friends?
Because she is funny and a good friend...and I miss her!

21) Have you seen this person cry?
I think I've walked in on the tail end of one...

22) Do you know this persons middle name?
yes, but I don't know if she wants me to say...

Now repost this as:
"Can u answer 22 questions about ur number 3?"

I got nuttin'.

I have these random thoughts about something to post, but I'm just not able to bring them to fruition. I want to comment on other blogs, but just can't think of anything of any value to say. Not that I always let that stop me.

Meh. Maybe one of these days, you'll click over here, and there will be something interesting. I just wouldn't hold my breath, if I were you.

"Hunger affects more than 38 million people in America today - and 14 million are children. It's a challenge that requires constant attention and support, and food producers and chefs are in a unique position to help raise awareness and money through projects like The Celebrity Pasta Lovers' Cookbook.

Every time you or a friend downloads a copy of The Celebrity Pasta Lovers' Cookbook, Barilla will donate $1, with a total donation up to $100,000, to America's Second Harvest - The Nation's Food Bank Network, a national charity that secures and distributes more than 2 billion pounds of donated food and grocery products annually. We appreciate your help in alleviating hunger in America, and we hope you enjoy the cookbook!"


download

As far as the cookbook goes, it's only 12 recipes, but it does send $1 to the food bank.

Just for Coco

Lookie what I found!

More quizzes

Nutz, did you make this quiz? *grin*

83%BON JOVI FOR LIFE!!!83%

 

**you're almost a bon jovi nut like me...they're are plenty of people who love Bon Jovi & yet don't know just 1/2 of anything about them but you know more than others to have gotten you to this score**

JON BON JOVI...how well do you know him???
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You are a 75% Movie Addict.

 

Well done, great score, you must love the feeling of those velour cinema seats. Does your diet consist purely of Popcorn, Hot Dogs and Haribo?

The Movie Tagline quiz
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What's Haribo???

A quiz that starts out by admitting it doesn't make sense - ya gotta admire the honesty.

What random lyric are you? Your Result: Greenday   "Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go. So make the best of this test and don't ask why. It's not a question but a lesson learned in time."
Charlie Robinson
Simple Plan
The Fray
Bowling for Soup
Good Charlotte
Fergie
Staind
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I expect to see really high scores from some of you on this one...

You are 45% Canadian, eh!

 

You did reasonably well, but your knowledge of Canada is still no better than average. Most Canadians know far more about the U.S. than you do about them.

Could You Be A Canadian?
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Which Star Wars Character Are You? Your Result: Princess Leia Congratulations, you are a princess! That means you are often bossy and a bit of a snob. However, you are mindful and helpful of the little people in the galaxy.
Luke SkyWalker
Yoda
Jar Jar Binks
Han Solo
Boba Fett
Darth Vader
Jabba the Hutt
Which Star Wars Character Are You? Create Your Own Quiz

And I found one just for Bravie!!!!

You are a 3%Fart Master!

Either you lie or you have no rectum. We know your type secret farters who live a life of cramping and repression.

How gassy are you?

quiz time

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The South   That's a Southern accent you've got there. You may love it, you may hate it, you may swear you don't have it, but whatever the case, we can hear it.
The Midland
The West
The Inland North
Philadelphia
The Northeast
Boston
North Central
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Your 76% smarter than Jerry Springer Guests!!

 

Okay, not bad. You would not end up on TV with Leno if they were asking you questions...probably. You need a little brush up but not bad at all. Good Job!

Are you a smart or stupid American?
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At least I know it should be "you're", not "your".

I need a filter between my brain & mouth

co-worker: "I'm sorry I confused you."
me: "Oh, I'm not confused, I just thought you screwed it all up."

"Resisting Carey's mind control"

Jen, do you feel any different yet? *grin*

dream interpretation

OK, I had a very sexually explicit dream last night, doing something I have never done, or even considered doing. And while the person I was doing this with, is very hot, I'm not exactly attracted. What do sex dreams mean?

EDIT: So, I've looked up my dream at dreammoods.com and this is what I have found:

Sex

To dream about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex (this is soooo true). It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love.

To dream about sex with someone other than your spouse or significant other, suggests dissatisfaction with the physical side of your relationship. On the other hand, it may be harmless fantasy. In such situations, you may find that you are less inhibited sexually and you can even bring that sense of adventure to your existing relationship.

To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fiancee. It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.

If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are having sex with someone of the same sex, signifies not necessarily homosexual desire, but an expression of greater self love and acceptance. You need to be in better touch of your feminine or masculine side.

To dream that you are the opposite sex, suggests that you exhibit or need to incorporate those qualities of the opposite sex. Ask yourself, how do you feel being a man or a woman? In what ways can you incorporate those feelings into your waking life.

Oral Sex
To dream that you are giving or receiving oral sex, signifies your willingness to give or receive pleasure/joy. It is symbolic of your creative energy and reaffirms that you are headed in the right direction in life. The dream may also be a pun on talking about sex. You may need to communicate with your mate about your sexual needs and desires. Perhaps you are acting out your sexual wishes.

To dream that you are performing oral sex on yourself, represents your need for self-gratification.

Quiz time

You Passed High School with an C

You have the brains of a high school graduate... at least!

Could You Pass High School?

I really thought I would do better. I just wish I knew which questions I missed.

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy. You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

Looking back

My mom made my clothes when I was young. We didn't have much money, so we really couldn't afford to buy clothes. So of course, that's what I wanted more than anything. "Store bought" clothes. Instead I had home-made clothes or hand me downs. And the school I went to, there was a definite division of "the haves" and "have-nots". Even in the first grade, there were cliques and people looked down on those that didn't have as much as them. I'm sure that has a lot to do with why I will not shop at yard sales or second hand stores. Arkieboy would ask me to take him to the Good Will store so he could look for a shirt, and I hated to do it. I hated it. A couple of women in my office shop at the Good Will store a lot, and they're always talking about some of the great deals that they get, but I just cannot stand the thought of buying used clothes. It was always such a mark of not being "good enough" when I was younger, that I just can't do it now. I won't even go to a used book store.

First grade:





















Third grade:



















Fourth grade - I finally got my "store-bought" dress.

part 2

Tenth grade - my mom made this blouse.

I had to wear it the next year, too. One day, in Honors English, our teacher was going over something in that day's lesson. We were working on creative writing. I don't remember what point she was trying to make, but she decided to give us an example, I think of descriptive writing. So, to somehow teach us something about writing, she makes this statement: "You can tell that Freda is poor because her clothes are handmade and are made of cotton materials." Maybe we were supposed to incorporate observations in our writing assignment. I don't remember the "lesson", but I do remember the feeling of humiliation.







This picture has nothing to do with the posts. I just like the way my hair looks. This was my 11th grade pic.

Frustrated

I know, I know... I said I was going to have a better attitude this year. I was going to not complain, bitch and whine about stuff, really. But I'm just so frustated at work. I work for a great company. I have a wonderful supervisor. I make pretty decent money, especially considering I only have an Associate's Degree. I should just be thankful for all that, and suck it up when it comes to anything less than perfect.

Having made that disclaimer, I will now get to my point. I feel like I am held to a much higher standard than other employees. I'm supposed to be perfect, and never make mistakes. I'm given the same training as everyone else, yet I'm expected to somehow know more and be able to explain everything to the others. Sometimes, I'm given less training, and am still supposed to be the "answer gal" if anyone has questions. I just get so frustrated with this. I don't automatically understand everything. I have questions, too. But there doesn't seem to be a source for me to go to. Today, one of the regional employees had called with questions about this claims clearinghouse we've started using for our insurance claims. (I only work with Medicare.) She has sat through the same online training that company provided that I have. So, why am I expected to know more about this than anyone else? I'm not included in any of the meetings, yet I'm supposed to be on top of everything we're doing. I'm just tired of it. Why the hell am I put down as the contact person, when I'm not even kept in the loop as to what this whole thing is?

Carey's wedding cake

Twinkies, HoHo's, Cupcakes, and Suzy Q's... It's perfect for Bravie!

I've got the wedding photos!!!!

Apparently, Carey couldn't decide on which dress to go with, so they actually had 3 ceremonies.

As you can see, the first ceremony was a combination of elegance and country (the cowboy hat). It's just a shame she couldn't find a better bra to wear with the dress. Look at the size of those straps! Now that's what you call a support foundation!
























For the second ceremony, Carey went with a Strapless Taffeta gown that has a Basque waistline and full gathered skirt. The bodice is embellished at the top with beading and crystals. The skirt features a chapel length train. I just think that if she was going to use fake tan on her arms and shoulders, she probably should have applied some to her face or not used quite so much on her torso.

























For the final ceremony, she went with something other than white. I really don't know what to say about this choice. It's interesting. Can you just imagine what the bridesmaids' dresses must have looked like?

Old photo

Feel free to *point and laugh*


















I always hated this picture of me. As you can tell, my mom cut my hair when I was young. And she kept my hair short. When I was younger, I would look at this picture, and I always thought it looked like a boy in a dress. Gawd, I had such big ears. Still do, but I guess I've kind of grown into them.

Trying for a new attitude

"If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes." ~St. Clement of Alexandra

"The art of being wise is knowing what to overlook." ~ William James

"A loving heart is the truest wisdom." ~ Charles Dickens

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world." ~ Mahatma Ghandi


I generally don't make New Year's resolutions. And I'm really not making one now. But I do plan to try to have a better attitude in the coming year. I will have hope, and I will try to be wise. And I will work towards being the person I should be.