Sunday, January 29, 2006

so

Work has been pissy. I am getting fed up with a few things. For one, I am tired of people totally disregarding what I say. There is a report that has to be submitted to CMS every quarter. And every quarter, someone is late getting it to me. I requested that it be sent to me so that I had it by the 20th. Two people waited until the 19th to mail it. Why the fuck would you do that? WHY? And it's not like this is just some minor report that is not important... If you don't submit it, then CMS cuts off the cash flow. Another thing, I have told them over and over again, that when a claim is rejected for MSP issues, you CANNOT file a new claim, you must adjust the rejected claim. So, what do they do? They keep submitting new claims. Do they pick up the phone or send me an email, asking for help? No, they just keep doing the same thing over and over and over. Guess what? If it didn't work the first time, or the second, or the third, it's not going to work the fourth, fifth, sixth, etc time, either! Perfect time for one of my favorite quotes - "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." ~Albert Einstein

We have a new member in our department. She had worked in one of the facilities. We got along fine then. Now? Not so much. Some people need to learn their place, and stay the hell out of my job.

I quit going to Weight Watchers around Thanksgiving. I'm gaining the weight back, because I'm not eating right at all. And I should care, but I am having a hard time doing so. I feel myself drifting back into that depression that I thought I had put behind me. I feel a distance being created between me and some of my online friends, and I'm not sure if I'm creating it, or if they are.

Arkieboy has started going to church. He told me a couple of months ago that he was saved, and he was baptized and joined the church. I'm torn about this. On the one hand, I am very happy for him, because even though I am not currently going to church, I still believe in God, and I belief that faith is very important. On the other hand, he is going to a very conservative church. He soaks everything in like a sponge, and I don't agree with all of the teachings of this church. (Think Rulz here.) And Arkieboy is one of those type of people that will debate you to death, and being his parent, I obviously don't know anything about anything. (teenagers! bah!) He has said a couple of things, and it really bothers me, but I don't know how to address it. I don't want to come across as being critical of his faith or belittling of his beliefs, but some of his opinions don't sit well with me.

15 comments:

mm said...

I am glad you posted all this Arkie. I'd hate to see you slip into depression (again) and maybe this way we can help you keep the feeling of being connected.

Don't stress about the weight, there is nothing you can do about it if you are not feeling motivated right now. Focus on *you* and what makes you happy (and if that means going back to WW, then do it!).

Arkieboy is young, and impressionable, yes, but he is also young and impressionable. :D So, give it time, his other interests will come into play and possibly (likely) effect his new interest. Or at least, help keep it in check, some. He won't like hearing a lot of the principals when they directly effect him, I think. Also, though he might not look all that interested in your opinions, don' stop sharing them, because he *can* hear you!

big *smooches*
big {{hugs}}

lights said...

Hang in there Arkie hon. Work stress sucks and it can really do a number on how you feel about yourself. I've been there too. I keep telling myself over and over again that I shouldn't let it get to me but often it does.

I have no great advice about the weight thing. I've put on a couple pounds this month and I'm struggling with it too. I just don't do diets.

Fighting off the depression feeling is hard but you can do it. If you need a shoulder, I'm a pretty good listener. *hugs*

I agree with mm. Don't stop sharing your opinions with Arkieboy. Even if it doesn't seem like he's hearing it, he does.

Syren said...

*sigh*
Everyone knows most of my views, what they do not know is that my brother thinks that I am the spawn of the devil. Really. He has told me.

There was a time when my brother say everyone as equal. Saw abortion as the right of the woman. Then he decided he wanted to go to Private Christian school here. Things began to change then. My dad wishes now that he wold have intervened, because really the only time my brother has anything to say to me, is when he is telling me what it is I am doing wrong and what verses in the bible can fix it. I don't even talk to him now unless I have to.
My brother is exactly like some of the peeps on the other place. His views and opinions are so far from what I and my family believe. My dad has evolved somewhat over the last few months *grin* but as far as my brother is concerned, he feels he is doing right, even if it alienates everyone.

Sooooo...with all that being said. While it is good he has something, talk to him. Let him know how you feel. Maybe suggest he visit other churches and religions before making a set decision on one. Every church, has a different outlook.

Aislinn Sirk said...

Sooooo, what do you wish blown up first?

church, coworkers, local pizza place?

There no point just leaving this stuff lying around, you know.

Bravie said...

*hugs* You know we are all here for you. Sometimes friendships, even online ones, ebb and flow. Those who are your real friends will always be there for you even if it feels like there is a distance from time to time.
I'm not sure what to say about Arkieboy. I can understand your concern and your split feelings. Is there any other church that he might be able to or willing to attend?

Sonya said...

Arkie,

We should do a weight loss together via blog. What do you think?

Jen said...

*hugs*

I agree with what everyone else said about sharing your opinions with Arkieboy. As long as he hears both sides of an issue, you are doing good. It's his job to then decide which way he will go. Don't let those crazy church people's voices be louder than yours. *grin*

*smooch*

momma said...

Well, if it makes your day any better, I removed you from my Hiatus block and back to bloggy buddies *grin*

Work is a bitch. Always. Some days are just better than others and it sounds like you're due for a run of good days.

Tell Arkieboy you just don't agree with some of his opinions and there is nothing wrong with having those different opinions. Maybe it will open him up to hearing why you have a different thought process. *hugs*

Puffy said...

Simply *hugs* and hang in there.

Zombs said...

Hey Arkie?

*tickles*

I don't know what to say other than big hugs and little poots.

(well they are stinky poots but little all the same)

amy karp | PHOTOGRAPHY said...

we having an all request hour - soundtrack to life @ my blog

c'mon - we need music!

ames

volsfan said...

I am with Bob on this one but the saying here in East Tennessee would be, "Whatcha won't blowed up first?"

~Nutz said...

*smoochies* & {{{hugs}}}

I am always here for ya, babe! (Even if I don't have a lot of blogging time right now.)

arkie said...

Thank you, everyone. I appreciate all the advice, and will be talking to arkieboy about different beliefs and tolerance.

Bob? I think I want you to blow up the local McDonald's, please.

Schnookie said...

I'm late. I agree with the peeps that say to continue talking about different beliefs to Arkieboy.

*BIG HUGS* to you Arkie. Please hang in there and know that you do have friends here that love you. We may not always be here or show it but we are thinking about you and wishing you the best. *smooooooooch*