*snort*

We are playing a prank on someone at work. Photo Shop is a wonderful thing, and I am so jealous of peeps who know how to work the program.

so

Work has been pissy. I am getting fed up with a few things. For one, I am tired of people totally disregarding what I say. There is a report that has to be submitted to CMS every quarter. And every quarter, someone is late getting it to me. I requested that it be sent to me so that I had it by the 20th. Two people waited until the 19th to mail it. Why the fuck would you do that? WHY? And it's not like this is just some minor report that is not important... If you don't submit it, then CMS cuts off the cash flow. Another thing, I have told them over and over again, that when a claim is rejected for MSP issues, you CANNOT file a new claim, you must adjust the rejected claim. So, what do they do? They keep submitting new claims. Do they pick up the phone or send me an email, asking for help? No, they just keep doing the same thing over and over and over. Guess what? If it didn't work the first time, or the second, or the third, it's not going to work the fourth, fifth, sixth, etc time, either! Perfect time for one of my favorite quotes - "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." ~Albert Einstein

We have a new member in our department. She had worked in one of the facilities. We got along fine then. Now? Not so much. Some people need to learn their place, and stay the hell out of my job.

I quit going to Weight Watchers around Thanksgiving. I'm gaining the weight back, because I'm not eating right at all. And I should care, but I am having a hard time doing so. I feel myself drifting back into that depression that I thought I had put behind me. I feel a distance being created between me and some of my online friends, and I'm not sure if I'm creating it, or if they are.

Arkieboy has started going to church. He told me a couple of months ago that he was saved, and he was baptized and joined the church. I'm torn about this. On the one hand, I am very happy for him, because even though I am not currently going to church, I still believe in God, and I belief that faith is very important. On the other hand, he is going to a very conservative church. He soaks everything in like a sponge, and I don't agree with all of the teachings of this church. (Think Rulz here.) And Arkieboy is one of those type of people that will debate you to death, and being his parent, I obviously don't know anything about anything. (teenagers! bah!) He has said a couple of things, and it really bothers me, but I don't know how to address it. I don't want to come across as being critical of his faith or belittling of his beliefs, but some of his opinions don't sit well with me.

weekend quizzes

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.

What Is Your World View?

You Are The Devil

You don't represent evil, but you do represent the animalistic side of humans. You demonstrate what happens when we listen to our first instincts. At times you tend to be materialistic and hedonistic, giving in to temptation. Admit it, you're guilty of acting first - and forgetting to think later! Your fortune: Right now, you may be having a difficult time as a result of choices you have made. You need to think about what's important in your life, and discover what chains you down. It is the time to acknowledge your faults and take steps to overcome them. It's also the time to let go of any fears or inhibitions that are holding you back.

What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

Post Secret

Post Secret

I think a lot of us go to this site. Sometimes, there will be a postcard that really speaks to me. This one did.

You Are a Rainbow

Breathtaking and rare You are totally enchanting and intriguing But you usually don't stick around long! You are best known for: your beauty Your dominant state: seducing

What Type of Weather Are You?

Yeah, ok, whatever.

You Are a Retrospective Soul

The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Paradox/Self-Knowledge

I care about people and can't stand to see them hurting, and wish I could solve their problems. I am one of the most self-centered, selfish people you will ever meet.

I don't cry when people die in real life. I cry at movies, and when reading books. I also am brought to tears by marching bands. (I SOOOO don't understand that one.)

The personality traits that I find to be the most annoying in others are ones that I have also.

There are two people at OT that, on the surface, appear to be really very much alike. I like one, and despise the other.

I am in awe of people who possess great intelligence and can carry on intense intellectual discussions, but would really like to tell them some times to get the fuck over themselves.

I am a great listener and can really empathize with people at times, and other times, I just totally zone out and all I hear is blah, blah, blah, brak, brak, brak, I love the sound of my own voice, blah, blah, blah.

Honesty is very important to me, and I try not to lie, yet I will lie and say I agree with someone just to get them to shut up already.

I am a calm, easy-going person, and very non-confrontational, yet I can lose my temper at a drop of a hat, and will scream and yell and cuss you out in a heartbeat.

I am shy and get embarrassed easily, yet will share some of the most intimate details of my life with people.

I am naive and trusting, but also very cynical.

I have to laugh at how wrapped up some people get in TV shows, yet, I am very pissed at how the scoring went on the Skating with the Celebrities show last week.

I don't understand why people still flock to Graceland every August, yet I still regret and mourn the passing of Stevie Ray Vaughn. And I cried when Princess Diana died.

I do not play sports, etc, because I am not good at them. I don't do things if I can't do them well. Yet, I continue to be on my company's bowling league. (This week? The second game, I actually bowled a freaking 55. I'm the worst bowler in the league, and it bothers me sometimes, but for the most part I don't care.)

You Are 36% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

On a break

"I got sick of my job, sick of my wife
Sick of my future and sick of my life
I packed up my car and I got some gas
And told ev'rybody they could kiss my ass
I'm goin' to Party town (Yeah, yeah)
I wanna party down (Yeah, yeah)
I wanna have some fun
I wanna fool around
I'm goin' to Party town"

Got some issues I need to work on and things I need to work through. See ya when I see ya.

Why the monkey butt?

In case you're wondering...

These most recent picture was posted because, for some reason, after I posted the first pic, Zombie asked a couple of times for another picture. Seeing as how I am such an accomodating person, I posted it for her.

The first picture posted was to make MiamiCatt laugh (and allow me to be be a bitch). There is a particular peep at OT that I simply despise. Some of you know who this person is. I am not going to name names, because I believe some of you are friends with this person. This person is not one of Catt's favorite peeps, either. One night, to cheer Catt up, I started ripping on this person in my IM's to Catt. I mentioned that this person's face, IMO, resembles a monkey's ass. (And, yes, I am aware that the first pic is of Chimpanzees, which are actually apes, not monkeys.)

So, that's the story behind the monkey butt.

Hey, Z'Baby!

*wink* Are you turned on yet?

(only for you would I google monkey butt)

Pleasant little dream

I had a couple of nice dreams last night. Of course, by now, I'm left with just vague memories of what the dreams were, but they were nice. Not sex dreams, though. In the dream, I was in a relationship with a really nice guy, who was also quite cute. This is not someone I know IRL. We were just hanging out together at my house, cuddling on the couch while I did some paperwork. (Sorry, that's all I remember - except for him asking me where I keep my matchbox cars.)

*points up* That's what I hate the most about being alone. Don't get me wrong, I hate not having sex, too, but I really hate not having someone to just BE with.

Follow up on Honesty Post

I have really enjoyed all your responses to my question about how you interact with people you don't like. Some of the responses made me want to delve a little deeper.

What do you do when the person you don't like has something bad happen to them? I don't mean anything seriously tragic like death or being struck by a major catastrophe or being diagnosed with a serious disease. More along the lines of they put in for a promotion and didn't get it, or things like that.

I have to admit, I don't care. If I don't like you, and you didn't get the job you wanted, I laugh to myself. And if you post something on a message board about it, I don't post any comments whatsoever. I just cannot express sympathy that I don't truly feel. And I can't or don't feel sympathy for people I don't like. And I'm not completely sure that I would express any sympathy for the more tragic events, either. I truly am a cold-hearted bitch sometimes. Or I'm extremely passionate. You know? I love completely and whole-heartedly, and I hate the same way.

I also wonder sometimes about the responses to pics posted on OT. People post pics of themselves, their SO, their children, and everyone responds with how hot the poster is, how hot the SO is, and cute the children are, and I wonder... Do you really feel that way? Or are you being nice? Don't get me wrong, I would never tell someone I thought their kid was ugly, I wouldn't tell them their SO was ugly, etc, but I'm not going to gush all over someone, saying how gorgeous they are, when they're just average looking. (Or in some cases, uglier than a monkey's ass. *waves to Catt* she knows who I mean.) We had a discussion in someone's blog (don't remember whose it was. Hell, it might have been mine!) about a particular set of oobies, and how they weren't as fantastic as the owner of said oobies seems to think. But every time that pic gets posted, the men just drool and fall all over themselves to say how hot they are. And it makes me wonder if they really mean that, or is it just saying it to bolster someone's ego.

If you haven't figured it out yet, I really don't interact well socially with people.

Oops! I forgot something else that I wanted to address. Some of you had commented that you find out that you had had the wrong idea about someone you didn't initially like. I understand that. I think I tend to like most people to start off with and think the best of them, and then it's as I get to see more of them, that I realize that I was wrong that way. That they aren't as nice or whatever as I thought. Or they just become more and more annoying to me. And I know this is an incredibly arrogant statement that I'm about to make, but I'm being honest here. Let me make a disclaimer first: I do not expect my friends to like who I like, and dislike who I dislike. They may see something in someone (good or bad) that I don't see, and vice versa. However, sometimes there are some people that I dislike so much, that I really question the judgement of people who seem to like them. Seriously. It's like, are we not listening to the same person? Can you not see what an ass this person is?

Honesty.

Do you think people know what you truly think about them? I don't just mean the people you care about, knowing how much you do care, and appreciate them, but the people you don't like. Do they know you don't like them?

Isn't there some level of dishonesty in being friendly to people when you truly despise them? *sigh* I dunno... I am almost always nice to people, no matter what I feel about them. And I think people are led to believe that I'm friends with them because of that. I think that makes me a hypocrite and 2-faced. It's strange, I'm nicer to people I don't like than I am to people I like. The more comfortable I am with someone, the more likely I am to pop off rude remarks sometimes.

Well, that's enough of deep thoughts for me.

Monkey Ass!!!

Introducing...

Kolton Louis

For Catt, and she knows why

Blah, blah, blah, I know more than you... *grin*

twig

drifting drifting
skimming along the top
bumping against others
but never stopping
moving on
out of sight
gone

Hey, Coco!

Good news! My sister, who found she was pregnant with her 2nd child around the same time you found out you were pregnant, and was given the same original due date that you were given, is in the hospital right now having the baby! Maybe this will be one more thing the two of you have in common with your pregnancies!

UPDATE: At 3:27 this afternoon, Kolton Lewis entered this world. He weighed 9 pounds, 8 ounces. Mother and son are doing fine.

(not sure if she's spelling it Lewis or Louis)

Was I the only one who didn't know...

what a fuckbench was? (And was curious enough to go google it?)